the hostel

have i ever told you guys that my father got a job ? yeah, he retired from his company, and he got a new job . do you know his job now ? yeah, he is a matron . especially, he is the matron of hostel for theology college .
fyi, i have no house for now . i've rented a house, but it will be over soon . because my family's economy is still bad, we will move to the hostel where my father works .
sounds nice, eh ? you know, i like that hostel very much . i mean, i'll get a library near me*(fyi i really like reading), a room with ac*(fyi i HATE heat . i can't sleep without at least a van right into me) and the scenery from the rooftop is AMAZING . perhaps i'll take some pictures there and post it here so you guys can see it . you can see this city from the rooftop .

but, it's still a hostel .
it is hostel for theology college student .

i mean, can you imagine it ? well, i do want to take magister in theology, but living in the hostel ? gosh, you must be joking me . i mean, it's a hostel . like my sister's fear, there is no privacy down there . and fyi, i'm not a social person . i'm a moody person . but down there, i have to socialize, because my father is the matron . even my mother will be the one who do the shopping and arrange the daily menu for this hostel .

what i hate most, is the location . i mean, i've been living in mampang all this time . when my house was gone, i still rent the house in mampang . i'm very bad in direction . so if i have to go there, i don't know if i can hang out or whatever .
my closed friends' houses are near with my location right now*(fyi i don't move in yet . soon, perhaps this week) . we used to visit each other's houses . but after i move in there, i don't think it will ever happen again .

but what can i do ?
nothing .
O Jesus please take the wheel ...

welcome to the green campus : UNJ !!!

give applause please ...*applaused sound
that's better, thank you

well, where should i start to tell ?
hmm ... okay . i pass UMB and i get germanistik in unj . do you know unj ? it used to be ikip jakarta, but now it is unj .
i've registered, and pay for that . and does it mean i'll get there ? maybe .
yeah, i want to get into ui*(who doesn't want it?), but i throw that dream already . yeah, i throw it for basic reason : money . but we will not talk about it now .

germanistik . in high school, i used to get french class . so, i never learn germanistik before . the only words i know are 'danke'=thank you and 'ich liebe dich'=i love you . so i think it will be pretty difficult me . i mean, it's something whole new fo me . pretty challenging and ... suck . i hate to be in the class i'm not good at . maybe i will be the stupidest student ever in that class, but who cares ? neither do i .

i don't know . i have no idea about my future here . hell, i know none there . well, my friend sign up there, but i don't know . but, caution world . i am ael . no matter what i'll face later, i can do it*maybe .

i like ...

my friends are not pleased with me because of this . they always ask why i never tell them about my boyfriend . and when i answer i don't have any, then they'll say at least i must have someone i like, so tell them who he is .

well, i do like someone . i already like him for such long time, until i start doubting do i really like him or is he just my obsession . and when i look at him ... i don't get the answer . dang, those songs lie to me . i don't see him as the one who i want to live with . even, i can't see him as my couple !


i just like him .

and i expect nothing from this feeling . why ? because i do nothing and i gain nothing . i never want to try to flirt him . well, maybe i used to flirt him ... but now i don't . i also gain nothing, there's no way i can gain something -___-

i just like him .
i like the way he talks, jokes, asks and answers .
i like the way he smiles and laughs .
i like the way he moves and walks .
i like the way he sings and dance .
i like the way he was, he is and he will be .

hahaha ...
it seems i like him pretty much .
and the rest of feeling i feel for him ... i heart him .
he is a dear brother, a wise preacher and a good friend .



more of it, he is the one who i like (: