it just needs a few days, to change your admiration and crush into a whole new level: love.
even I try my best to avoid that word. but you feel it. you think about it. you write it down.
you've really fallen for her. wow.
it's not like I'm gonna bother you, or even myself. I'll just be here.
I'll be ready.
Minggu, 11 Desember 2011
Selasa, 06 Desember 2011
Kindheit - eine Fragebogen für Erwachsene
Also, gestern hatte ich über Generation in der Klasse sprechen. Dann habe ich eine Aufgabe vom Sprachtraining gemacht. Ich finde es interessant, deshalb schreibe ich diesen Schreiben jetzt. Es tut mir leid, wenn ich viele Fehler an diesen Schreiben mache. Prost!
Was war dein größter Wunsch?
Damals wünsche ich sehr, ein Fahrad zu haben. Aber meine Eltern waren dagegen.
Und jetzt ist mein größter Wunsch Reisen durch weltweit.
Was mochtest du gar nichts?
Das war schlecht, wenn ich Gemüse essen musste.
Jetzt will ich einfach keine schlechten Noten nehmen.
Was wolltest du werden?
Als ich noch klein war, hatte ich sehr viele Träume. Ich würde Ingenieurin, ich würde Pilotin, ich würde Lehrerin, und so weiter.
Aber jetzt kenne ich nicht eigentlich was ich werden will. Ich möchte so viel erzählen, zum Beispiel wie ich eine Reiseführerin werde. Oder eine Botschafterin. Aber nicht jetzt. Vielleicht will ich später erzählen.
Wovor hast du als Kind Angst gehabt?
Ich hatte Angst vor Ondel-ondel.
Eigentlich kenne ich nicht was ich antworten soll. Heute kann ich Ondel-ondel akzeptieren, und ich denke auch, dass ich nicht über diese Sache sprechen. Wofür sage ich dir, wovor ich Angst heute habe, oder?
Aber ja, ich habe Angst vor dem großen Feuer.
Welche Musik hast du damals gerne gehört?
Ich horte gerne alle Musik bis heute. Aber ich mag sehr Latin, Jazz, Klassik und so weiter.
Was hast du als Kind am liebsten gegessen?
Ich aß gerne Nudeln. Jetzt ist mein Lieblingsessen Sushi. Aber eigentlich esse ich gerne alle, deshalb bin ich dick :p
Wen hättest du damals gerne kennen gelernt?
Es ist komisch, aber als Kind hätte ich sehr gerne Meisy getroffen. Jetzt möchte ich J.K. Rowling kennen lernen. Und ich möchte auch wirklich mit den koreanischen Sängern treffen.
Was war dein größter Wunsch?
Damals wünsche ich sehr, ein Fahrad zu haben. Aber meine Eltern waren dagegen.
Und jetzt ist mein größter Wunsch Reisen durch weltweit.
Was mochtest du gar nichts?
Das war schlecht, wenn ich Gemüse essen musste.
Jetzt will ich einfach keine schlechten Noten nehmen.
Was wolltest du werden?
Als ich noch klein war, hatte ich sehr viele Träume. Ich würde Ingenieurin, ich würde Pilotin, ich würde Lehrerin, und so weiter.
Aber jetzt kenne ich nicht eigentlich was ich werden will. Ich möchte so viel erzählen, zum Beispiel wie ich eine Reiseführerin werde. Oder eine Botschafterin. Aber nicht jetzt. Vielleicht will ich später erzählen.
Wovor hast du als Kind Angst gehabt?
Ich hatte Angst vor Ondel-ondel.
Eigentlich kenne ich nicht was ich antworten soll. Heute kann ich Ondel-ondel akzeptieren, und ich denke auch, dass ich nicht über diese Sache sprechen. Wofür sage ich dir, wovor ich Angst heute habe, oder?
Aber ja, ich habe Angst vor dem großen Feuer.
Welche Musik hast du damals gerne gehört?
Ich horte gerne alle Musik bis heute. Aber ich mag sehr Latin, Jazz, Klassik und so weiter.
Was hast du als Kind am liebsten gegessen?
Ich aß gerne Nudeln. Jetzt ist mein Lieblingsessen Sushi. Aber eigentlich esse ich gerne alle, deshalb bin ich dick :p
Wen hättest du damals gerne kennen gelernt?
Es ist komisch, aber als Kind hätte ich sehr gerne Meisy getroffen. Jetzt möchte ich J.K. Rowling kennen lernen. Und ich möchte auch wirklich mit den koreanischen Sängern treffen.
Jumat, 11 November 2011
my lost-and-found handy
moral lesson: don't trust guys. even your own father. well, except Jesus.
if you guys didn't know it yet, I lost my handphone for about one week. it was wednesday. when I already got into the bus, I realised my handy wasn't in my pocket. then I felt sudden worry. I checked all my pocket, but it wasn't there. I opened my bag, and it wasn't there either. I started panicking.
I remembered, when I stood in the line to get into the bus, people were so crowded. they pushed me really hard, it was a real chaos. unfortunately, I was raising my hands because I got paper to be crossed to, my homework.
that time, I knew that I should tell the guard that I lost my phone. but something kept me. I thought it would be really silly if I actually lost my handy at home. but deep down, I didn't think so. my phone wasn't at home, and I wasn't bringing it either.
luckily, I met a friend of mind there. and then I asked him to call my phone. but I didn't find it yet. I also met my senior, and I borrowed her phone to call mine. and I really didn't have it.
when I came into class, I borrowed my friend's phone and tried to call my phone back. actually I wanted to call my parents or my sister to ask if I actually left it at home, but I forgot their number because of panic.
after all my classes finished, I went to my church. my mother should have her women service that day. unfortunately, the aunts there told me that my mother wouldn't come. then I come to my student's house for tutor. there I told her that I lost my phone and I borrowed her phone to call my mother. and after minutes...she told me my phone wasn't at home. NO!!!
when I got home, I did my own research. but still, I couldn't find it. I was really angry...but somehow it didn't show. all disappoint, anger, sadness...it didn't show. and on that very time, I realised I still got problem with my emotion.
and another thing I realised, now I could buy another handy. I already knew what handy I would buy. it would be a blackberry too. but this time, I would have the black one. and it would be a flip flop one. just like my friends jejel and okti had. my favourite one (:
next wednesday, when I already fell asleep, my mother and sister marched into my room and woke me up. they talked in the same time and I didn't really listen to them. all I heard was something like father...my...handphone...miracle...
and they handed out my handy.
I tried to get up, and listened more carefully to their talk. then my father came in. and all the talks became clear.
my father kept my handy all this time.
every day, my father drove me in the bus stop with his motorcycle. and that day, after he drove me in as usual, he rode back to home. when he was stopping in traffic light, someone poked him and told him that his hand was about to drop. and there it was, my handy, on the back seat, right above the lamp. which you know, above the lamp means it locates really at back.
so he took it...and the 'brilliant' idea popped out. he hid my handy, he didn't tell my mother, nor my sister, especially me. I remembered that day, right after I got home I asked him first, if I left my handy in his office or whatever. he answered, NO, not at all.
guys.
so typical.
so now, I got my handy back. nothing was taken away, not my pulse. and now I'm writing down this story on this handy.
so...
thanks, Father
and father.
P.S: I knew it will have wrong typing, but I'm too lazy to edit it. so, I'm sorry :D but I hope you still understand the story.
if you guys didn't know it yet, I lost my handphone for about one week. it was wednesday. when I already got into the bus, I realised my handy wasn't in my pocket. then I felt sudden worry. I checked all my pocket, but it wasn't there. I opened my bag, and it wasn't there either. I started panicking.
I remembered, when I stood in the line to get into the bus, people were so crowded. they pushed me really hard, it was a real chaos. unfortunately, I was raising my hands because I got paper to be crossed to, my homework.
that time, I knew that I should tell the guard that I lost my phone. but something kept me. I thought it would be really silly if I actually lost my handy at home. but deep down, I didn't think so. my phone wasn't at home, and I wasn't bringing it either.
luckily, I met a friend of mind there. and then I asked him to call my phone. but I didn't find it yet. I also met my senior, and I borrowed her phone to call mine. and I really didn't have it.
when I came into class, I borrowed my friend's phone and tried to call my phone back. actually I wanted to call my parents or my sister to ask if I actually left it at home, but I forgot their number because of panic.
after all my classes finished, I went to my church. my mother should have her women service that day. unfortunately, the aunts there told me that my mother wouldn't come. then I come to my student's house for tutor. there I told her that I lost my phone and I borrowed her phone to call my mother. and after minutes...she told me my phone wasn't at home. NO!!!
when I got home, I did my own research. but still, I couldn't find it. I was really angry...but somehow it didn't show. all disappoint, anger, sadness...it didn't show. and on that very time, I realised I still got problem with my emotion.
and another thing I realised, now I could buy another handy. I already knew what handy I would buy. it would be a blackberry too. but this time, I would have the black one. and it would be a flip flop one. just like my friends jejel and okti had. my favourite one (:
next wednesday, when I already fell asleep, my mother and sister marched into my room and woke me up. they talked in the same time and I didn't really listen to them. all I heard was something like father...my...handphone...miracle...
and they handed out my handy.
I tried to get up, and listened more carefully to their talk. then my father came in. and all the talks became clear.
my father kept my handy all this time.
every day, my father drove me in the bus stop with his motorcycle. and that day, after he drove me in as usual, he rode back to home. when he was stopping in traffic light, someone poked him and told him that his hand was about to drop. and there it was, my handy, on the back seat, right above the lamp. which you know, above the lamp means it locates really at back.
so he took it...and the 'brilliant' idea popped out. he hid my handy, he didn't tell my mother, nor my sister, especially me. I remembered that day, right after I got home I asked him first, if I left my handy in his office or whatever. he answered, NO, not at all.
guys.
so typical.
so now, I got my handy back. nothing was taken away, not my pulse. and now I'm writing down this story on this handy.
so...
thanks, Father
and father.
P.S: I knew it will have wrong typing, but I'm too lazy to edit it. so, I'm sorry :D but I hope you still understand the story.
Selasa, 18 Oktober 2011
zum Geburtstag!!!
my birthday was officially ended. thanks a lot for people who wished me happy birthday, blessing from God, good year ahead, etc.
well...actually i don't really have anything to tell. as i predicted, my birthday was pretty flat. i didn't even get martabak, my family's birthday tradition(and of course i didn't get a cake), money(it was all because they didn't listen to me, but i won't tell what kind of thing i asked them to not do it), or gifts.
o, actually i got one gift from my father. he bought me a new holly bible, in english. at first he wanted to buy me a wide-and-large-but-very-thin bible. he was very excited when he told me about how thin the bible was. thank God he told me first. so i asked him to change his mind, and buy me the little one, although it was dicker.
on the very day of my birthday, my friend jeje(i've posted once about jeje when she was about to flight to france). she is in france now. so i chatted with her from the night before. she told me about one kind guy she met at paris. and when it was 00.00, she suddenly congratulated me. i was suprised, because i didn't think she would remember, but hey she did! ^^ so yeah, she was the first person on that day. and came mas joe, a musician from my church, to congratulate me via fb. he was the second, i guess.
when i came into class, there were just few of my friends who knew it. and then when i got home, avola, my closest friend in univ(maybe), accompanied me. okay, actually it wasn't kind of accompany. she told me before that she would like to come to my house, but then she laughed. besides, she didn't ask. so i really had no idea, when suddenly she came and followed me to take a bus. i needed to be made sure for several times before i finally trusted that she really would come to my house. and yeah, she did.
we talked, talked and talked...and finally she got home. and there was i, who finally be able to eat(because she is muslim and my mother cooked pork). at the very night, i and my family prayed together. that was great, and then i slept.
today, i treated those girls. they were avola, zelvy and okti. they were my closest friends in the univ. we ate hokben, and had nice time together. and when all our classes finished, we hanged out together again in dunkin donut, but this time zelvy couldn't make it. so i, avola and okti chatted happily.
they two prepared a surprise for me. the asked me to close my eyes. at first, of course i didn't want to do it. based on my experience, from zelvy's birthday and avola's birthday, the surprise wouldn't be good. but the persuaded me, until finally i surrendered and closed my eyes. when i closed my eyes, they ordered me to not open my eyes. i was curious, yet excited, and they kept saying that they had prepared a shocking pink tshirt, especially for me, blablabla..
and finally i opened my eyes. tadaaaa!!! there was a nice little birthday cake, with its cute 19 candles above it, right in front of me!!! how sweet...^^ at first they were disappointed with my expression, because i didn't look surprised. but trust me girls, i was really touched there... :)
i made a wish before i blew out the candle. while i was hoping, they said all their guess about what i prayed that time for. they were so funny, and yeah i prayed all those prayers of them. and the we ate the cake, but sadly we couldn't eat it all, because we already ate our donuts...and sadly, i didn't take the candles back home. i really feel disappointed right now... :"(((
mm that's it. pheww...it's pretty long, huh? lol...
i can say i'm happy. although mybe this story seems nothing to you...it means a lot for me. so thankiss people (:
xoxo
well...actually i don't really have anything to tell. as i predicted, my birthday was pretty flat. i didn't even get martabak, my family's birthday tradition(and of course i didn't get a cake), money(it was all because they didn't listen to me, but i won't tell what kind of thing i asked them to not do it), or gifts.
o, actually i got one gift from my father. he bought me a new holly bible, in english. at first he wanted to buy me a wide-and-large-but-very-thin bible. he was very excited when he told me about how thin the bible was. thank God he told me first. so i asked him to change his mind, and buy me the little one, although it was dicker.
on the very day of my birthday, my friend jeje(i've posted once about jeje when she was about to flight to france). she is in france now. so i chatted with her from the night before. she told me about one kind guy she met at paris. and when it was 00.00, she suddenly congratulated me. i was suprised, because i didn't think she would remember, but hey she did! ^^ so yeah, she was the first person on that day. and came mas joe, a musician from my church, to congratulate me via fb. he was the second, i guess.
when i came into class, there were just few of my friends who knew it. and then when i got home, avola, my closest friend in univ(maybe), accompanied me. okay, actually it wasn't kind of accompany. she told me before that she would like to come to my house, but then she laughed. besides, she didn't ask. so i really had no idea, when suddenly she came and followed me to take a bus. i needed to be made sure for several times before i finally trusted that she really would come to my house. and yeah, she did.
we talked, talked and talked...and finally she got home. and there was i, who finally be able to eat(because she is muslim and my mother cooked pork). at the very night, i and my family prayed together. that was great, and then i slept.
today, i treated those girls. they were avola, zelvy and okti. they were my closest friends in the univ. we ate hokben, and had nice time together. and when all our classes finished, we hanged out together again in dunkin donut, but this time zelvy couldn't make it. so i, avola and okti chatted happily.
they two prepared a surprise for me. the asked me to close my eyes. at first, of course i didn't want to do it. based on my experience, from zelvy's birthday and avola's birthday, the surprise wouldn't be good. but the persuaded me, until finally i surrendered and closed my eyes. when i closed my eyes, they ordered me to not open my eyes. i was curious, yet excited, and they kept saying that they had prepared a shocking pink tshirt, especially for me, blablabla..
and finally i opened my eyes. tadaaaa!!! there was a nice little birthday cake, with its cute 19 candles above it, right in front of me!!! how sweet...^^ at first they were disappointed with my expression, because i didn't look surprised. but trust me girls, i was really touched there... :)
i made a wish before i blew out the candle. while i was hoping, they said all their guess about what i prayed that time for. they were so funny, and yeah i prayed all those prayers of them. and the we ate the cake, but sadly we couldn't eat it all, because we already ate our donuts...and sadly, i didn't take the candles back home. i really feel disappointed right now... :"(((
mm that's it. pheww...it's pretty long, huh? lol...
i can say i'm happy. although mybe this story seems nothing to you...it means a lot for me. so thankiss people (:
xoxo
Selasa, 11 Oktober 2011
hari burung
less than an hour, i'll step into the day, which is my birthday. sounds exciting, right? but i can't feel that way, yet at least. okay, my mood isn't as bad as i think it will be, so it's alright. even i can feel a bit of happiness, and a strange calmness.
just for your information, i'll have my 19th birthday this year. i always tell people around me that it's the year. this age will be the last time i can even my birthday as a teen. see? nineteen.
i planned many things for this very day before. but all those plans get wasted..because i dont ave money to make it true :p
it also passes through my mind..that i want to make this year as the changing point. maybe from this nineteen age, i'll act as naughty, wild, free and crazy as a girl can be. as i can be. it's the preparation before i step into an adult world.
but..that's to much, isn't it?
i already have problems which maybe need a terrific act to solve. so i'll just let my life go wherever the path leads to..and not waste my time to try to control this uncontrollable life (:
and..what else should i say? nothing else i think. and, just last but not least..i thank God. with this sinful self and life, i thank the most awesome, wonderful and amazing God people could put faith to. words, worships, and my whole life can't describe how thankful i am, but i know that He knows. so, dear God..
thank you.
just for your information, i'll have my 19th birthday this year. i always tell people around me that it's the year. this age will be the last time i can even my birthday as a teen. see? nineteen.
i planned many things for this very day before. but all those plans get wasted..because i dont ave money to make it true :p
it also passes through my mind..that i want to make this year as the changing point. maybe from this nineteen age, i'll act as naughty, wild, free and crazy as a girl can be. as i can be. it's the preparation before i step into an adult world.
but..that's to much, isn't it?
i already have problems which maybe need a terrific act to solve. so i'll just let my life go wherever the path leads to..and not waste my time to try to control this uncontrollable life (:
and..what else should i say? nothing else i think. and, just last but not least..i thank God. with this sinful self and life, i thank the most awesome, wonderful and amazing God people could put faith to. words, worships, and my whole life can't describe how thankful i am, but i know that He knows. so, dear God..
thank you.
Sabtu, 24 September 2011
twit fiktif
a lo ha .
agak banyak ide di kepala .. tapi masi belum tau, dan belum mau tau juga sih, gimana cara mengetiknya di sini . jadi hari ini sih intinya mampir aja, ngepost satu dua kata, ngumumin beberapa hal, dan basa basi lainnya . so .. how's life ?
gw sekarang agak jarang online . fb jelas udah jarang banget, ym bahkan juga ga 22hours lagi kaya kemaren2 . maklum gan, ane lagi sibuk *ciee . eh tapi seriusan lo . ngetwit juga udah ga sebebas dulu . ah, kebebasan di dunia internet .. sebenernya ini nih salah satu topik yg pengen gw omongin . tapi malas juga ya .. toh ga ada yang baca blog ini juga :p
tapi baru2 ini gw ngetwit .. yang sukur2 temanya akan terus berlanjut . agak2 berbau galau, tapi sedikit lebih sinis sarkatis dibanding gw yang biasanya . well, fyi, itu gw yang sedang changing mode dan berusaha mendalami seorang tokoh fiktif . ia memang keras terhadap dirinya sendiri, dan perasaan cinta yang asing baginya tidak membuat ia melunak . ia tidak menunjukkan kefemininan apa pun mengenai perasaan itu .. tetapi, pria itulah satu2nya 'the one', baik dalam hati maupun dalam hidup .
intinya twit gw ke depan mungkin jadi agak sarkatis blabla .. tapi jangan terlalu ngarep juga lah . toh gw moody, dan ditambah lagi gw mau tidur . bawaan hati, abis tidur biasanya lupa kenapa gw semangat tentang suatu hal .
jadi .. cukup sekian dulu kali ya . mari berharap bahwa di pertemua kita berikutnya akan lebih beruntung, yaitu mengetik lewat lappy . see ya later pals !
xoxo
agak banyak ide di kepala .. tapi masi belum tau, dan belum mau tau juga sih, gimana cara mengetiknya di sini . jadi hari ini sih intinya mampir aja, ngepost satu dua kata, ngumumin beberapa hal, dan basa basi lainnya . so .. how's life ?
gw sekarang agak jarang online . fb jelas udah jarang banget, ym bahkan juga ga 22hours lagi kaya kemaren2 . maklum gan, ane lagi sibuk *ciee . eh tapi seriusan lo . ngetwit juga udah ga sebebas dulu . ah, kebebasan di dunia internet .. sebenernya ini nih salah satu topik yg pengen gw omongin . tapi malas juga ya .. toh ga ada yang baca blog ini juga :p
tapi baru2 ini gw ngetwit .. yang sukur2 temanya akan terus berlanjut . agak2 berbau galau, tapi sedikit lebih sinis sarkatis dibanding gw yang biasanya . well, fyi, itu gw yang sedang changing mode dan berusaha mendalami seorang tokoh fiktif . ia memang keras terhadap dirinya sendiri, dan perasaan cinta yang asing baginya tidak membuat ia melunak . ia tidak menunjukkan kefemininan apa pun mengenai perasaan itu .. tetapi, pria itulah satu2nya 'the one', baik dalam hati maupun dalam hidup .
intinya twit gw ke depan mungkin jadi agak sarkatis blabla .. tapi jangan terlalu ngarep juga lah . toh gw moody, dan ditambah lagi gw mau tidur . bawaan hati, abis tidur biasanya lupa kenapa gw semangat tentang suatu hal .
jadi .. cukup sekian dulu kali ya . mari berharap bahwa di pertemua kita berikutnya akan lebih beruntung, yaitu mengetik lewat lappy . see ya later pals !
xoxo
Sabtu, 10 September 2011
reflection
am I disappointed ? I think so . even I don't like this fact I'm disappointed, but yes I am .
no, pals . I won't talk about what makes me disappointed, nor who makes me so .
the people who makes me this disappointed, isn't people I think will have anything important in my life . I mean no harm, but they just aren't included in my inner intimate circle . they are people whom I meet routinely, but don't reach level to be able to affect my life yet . I'm just surprised they did so, and I'm disappointed . but still, since they aren't type that affect my life, I won't change my acts and words toward them . I also can stop thinking I'm disappointed and why, but I can't stop my feelings toward them changing .. in way more negative .
but this point makes me think and have a reflection . I understand I can be way worse than them . I'm harsh, mean, cold and my moody self doesn't help at all . it's difficult to control my tongue, and I can't help it with my eyes . I'm not someone who have or do many things, clumsy and such geek . it must be annoying to have me say and act not-so-good to you .
up to this state, I bide you all my sincere apology . I'm sorry I make it hard for you all this time . deep inside, I'm overwhelmed with gratitude to have such friends like all of you . and least, I apology once again, because I don't promise I will change my bad habits for you . I'll be nicer to people I respect, need and want sincerely, but I admit I really dislike some of you . sorry, pals .
so, that's my reflection . I hope you understand, and let's pray for world to be better place for all of us . since I and you are in the same world, it's just same with praying for our own self to be better, include to each other (:
let's get along better !
xoxo
no, pals . I won't talk about what makes me disappointed, nor who makes me so .
the people who makes me this disappointed, isn't people I think will have anything important in my life . I mean no harm, but they just aren't included in my inner intimate circle . they are people whom I meet routinely, but don't reach level to be able to affect my life yet . I'm just surprised they did so, and I'm disappointed . but still, since they aren't type that affect my life, I won't change my acts and words toward them . I also can stop thinking I'm disappointed and why, but I can't stop my feelings toward them changing .. in way more negative .
but this point makes me think and have a reflection . I understand I can be way worse than them . I'm harsh, mean, cold and my moody self doesn't help at all . it's difficult to control my tongue, and I can't help it with my eyes . I'm not someone who have or do many things, clumsy and such geek . it must be annoying to have me say and act not-so-good to you .
up to this state, I bide you all my sincere apology . I'm sorry I make it hard for you all this time . deep inside, I'm overwhelmed with gratitude to have such friends like all of you . and least, I apology once again, because I don't promise I will change my bad habits for you . I'll be nicer to people I respect, need and want sincerely, but I admit I really dislike some of you . sorry, pals .
so, that's my reflection . I hope you understand, and let's pray for world to be better place for all of us . since I and you are in the same world, it's just same with praying for our own self to be better, include to each other (:
let's get along better !
xoxo
Jumat, 26 Agustus 2011
what a planned day ..
teaser kemaren ? lupakan, saudara-saudara . oh well, sebenernya gw mau nulisnya lebih sarkatis lagi, tapi berhubung gw buru2 dan ga mood .. just straight to the main topic . however, i've promised you how yesterday went on .
kalau kalian membaca post sebelumnya, kalian akan tau bahwa kemarin, saya seharusnya melakukan 3 hal yang agak spesial . yaitu nonton, yang seharusnya harry potter and the deathly hallows part 2, di fx, sendirian . itu, ga jadi . kenapa ? karena gw udah ke fx dan .. harpot udah ditarik dari peredaran . gw cek web 21cineplex, dibilang tinggal di pluit junction . so, no thanks .
juga seharusnya ada urgent meeting . yup, meeting yang diadakan oleh tim survey hw pkmj kemaren . seharusnya kemarin kami membahas mengenai villa dan sponsor .. tetapi rapat dicancel . dan ketiga, seharusnya kan gw ketemu sepupu gw tuh ya .. tapi ternyata ada salah informasi . kata nyokap, dia baru dateng senin, kira2 . so, kemarin gw juga ga ketemu sepupu gw deh .
itu laporan saya untuk hari jumat kemarin . hari yang tidak berjalan terlalu lancar, mengingat mood yang langsung memburuk karena tidak bisa menyaksikan si daniel radcliffe berlaga di layar segede-gede gaban depan gw .. oh well, whatever .
yasuwd, gw mesti cepet2 balikin lappy ke bawah, sebelum kena semprot bonyok . gw kan mesti menjaga kepercayaan mereka agar bisa memboyong si lappy terus ke kamar gw .. so sleep tight ! adios !
kalau kalian membaca post sebelumnya, kalian akan tau bahwa kemarin, saya seharusnya melakukan 3 hal yang agak spesial . yaitu nonton, yang seharusnya harry potter and the deathly hallows part 2, di fx, sendirian . itu, ga jadi . kenapa ? karena gw udah ke fx dan .. harpot udah ditarik dari peredaran . gw cek web 21cineplex, dibilang tinggal di pluit junction . so, no thanks .
juga seharusnya ada urgent meeting . yup, meeting yang diadakan oleh tim survey hw pkmj kemaren . seharusnya kemarin kami membahas mengenai villa dan sponsor .. tetapi rapat dicancel . dan ketiga, seharusnya kan gw ketemu sepupu gw tuh ya .. tapi ternyata ada salah informasi . kata nyokap, dia baru dateng senin, kira2 . so, kemarin gw juga ga ketemu sepupu gw deh .
itu laporan saya untuk hari jumat kemarin . hari yang tidak berjalan terlalu lancar, mengingat mood yang langsung memburuk karena tidak bisa menyaksikan si daniel radcliffe berlaga di layar segede-gede gaban depan gw .. oh well, whatever .
yasuwd, gw mesti cepet2 balikin lappy ke bawah, sebelum kena semprot bonyok . gw kan mesti menjaga kepercayaan mereka agar bisa memboyong si lappy terus ke kamar gw .. so sleep tight ! adios !
Kamis, 25 Agustus 2011
teaser of 'first time: watch alone'
so i wait for my movie to be played . i look around, and i know none . hell, i've never gone to this place before -____- but this place is the nearest one . there's no way i'm gonna go to pluit, or gading ..
actually, if i re-think about it, it's quite funny . you can say i'm pretty brave .. but you can't say i'm a happy lonely traveler . usually i don't like to visit a new place . either i don't like walking around alone . so this time, for the first time i'm gonna go to somewhere new, be alone there, and watch alone . fuhh ..
all these things happen because ..
what do you think about this teaser ? it should be done today . i'm not excited, but it doesn't mean i'm unhappy . today i also have an urgent meeting and a cousin to hook up with . the routine is coming in, i think . vacation .. is really over .
let's see how today gonna work for me . i'll tell you guys, no worries (:
so .. shall we ?
Rabu, 24 Agustus 2011
what does it feel like to be in love ?
a lot of stuffs bother me, and sometimes i get jealous, not to mention nervous and worried . but all in all, i love him and want to help him, and he truly is very important to me . that's where i'm at right now . even when we're apart, i feel close to him, and he supports me .
i'm happy just knowing he exists .
i think ran thinks so too .
and .. what's my answer, you think ? ;)
Selasa, 23 Agustus 2011
image
you know, life can be sooo easy . the complicated one is just the mind . would you like an example ? okay, let me give you one shot .
i have my life . and people around me, including you, see it . and if you care enough, which i guess you already do that since you read my blog right now, you'll have your own image of me . each of you can have sort of different concept of that image, but it's slightly same .
so .. here is the deal . i, we, can see what image they've created for us . somehow and sometimes, it's good . it's really good, that we'd like to keep them have that image on us . and then, time goes by . see, everything is relative . human can change in one second . then one day, let's just say that image is kind of preventing us on showing something . we get to watch our words and acts, because we don't want them to change that image of us they have .
do you guys get the case ? i know some of you, even most of you, will say why i do that . i shouldn't hide my own self, friendship shouldn't be based on fake fact, showing true self is much better either for me or for them, blablabla .
that's not wrong . that's absolutely right . is there else ? tell me .
but i get to say ..
it's interesting .
see how people get charmed on unusual side is interesting . it's fun to be someone else for a while you know, although i don't mean being my true self isn't good enough . it's not about goodness or badness .. it's just the fun i'm looking for (:
am i weird ? keeping that image isn't easy . for example, i don't write posts i really think because that image i want to keep . relax, this post and the rest aren't fake . i just don't write down the naked things, or if i write it down, i'll censor or use another words .
the funny thing is .. one day i read a comic . if i don't mistake it, the title is love egoist . the comic tells a girl who hides her bad personalities behind the image of perfect smart beautiful student and a teacher who hides behind his personalities too . both of them know their real personalities and it makes them close . and then, the student fall in love with this teacher . this teacher actually starts loving her too, but he finds out he changes now because of that girl, and he tries to ignore her because he is uncomfortable with the changes . of course we can guess the ending of this story . the teacher realizes his true feeling and they date . happy ending .
one small quote that got my attention .. they say(i don't really remember)
at the end, they start revealing their true personalities to the world . they really change .. because they love .
so .. will this habit of mine, playing with images when i get the mood, change ? or should i find my love first ? ;)
i have my life . and people around me, including you, see it . and if you care enough, which i guess you already do that since you read my blog right now, you'll have your own image of me . each of you can have sort of different concept of that image, but it's slightly same .
so .. here is the deal . i, we, can see what image they've created for us . somehow and sometimes, it's good . it's really good, that we'd like to keep them have that image on us . and then, time goes by . see, everything is relative . human can change in one second . then one day, let's just say that image is kind of preventing us on showing something . we get to watch our words and acts, because we don't want them to change that image of us they have .
do you guys get the case ? i know some of you, even most of you, will say why i do that . i shouldn't hide my own self, friendship shouldn't be based on fake fact, showing true self is much better either for me or for them, blablabla .
that's not wrong . that's absolutely right . is there else ? tell me .
but i get to say ..
it's interesting .
see how people get charmed on unusual side is interesting . it's fun to be someone else for a while you know, although i don't mean being my true self isn't good enough . it's not about goodness or badness .. it's just the fun i'm looking for (:
am i weird ? keeping that image isn't easy . for example, i don't write posts i really think because that image i want to keep . relax, this post and the rest aren't fake . i just don't write down the naked things, or if i write it down, i'll censor or use another words .
the funny thing is .. one day i read a comic . if i don't mistake it, the title is love egoist . the comic tells a girl who hides her bad personalities behind the image of perfect smart beautiful student and a teacher who hides behind his personalities too . both of them know their real personalities and it makes them close . and then, the student fall in love with this teacher . this teacher actually starts loving her too, but he finds out he changes now because of that girl, and he tries to ignore her because he is uncomfortable with the changes . of course we can guess the ending of this story . the teacher realizes his true feeling and they date . happy ending .
one small quote that got my attention .. they say(i don't really remember)
in this wicked world .. if we can show the true color only to the one we love .. isn't it beautiful?
at the end, they start revealing their true personalities to the world . they really change .. because they love .
so .. will this habit of mine, playing with images when i get the mood, change ? or should i find my love first ? ;)
Senin, 22 Agustus 2011
respect
in my heart and in my mind, i'll always remember to respect you . in any case, i'll try my best to show my respect for you . respect, for i know who you are, will be the base of every acts, words, feelings and thoughts toward you .
it's sad you don't respect my respect . our respect .
you act stubbornly . you say things before you think of them carefully . you ignore people's feelings . you think low on us .
are you satisfied with the way you act now ? does it taste that good ? are we that bad ? must you treat us so ?
i've been thinking .. and up until now, i don't understand your mind . i doubt your motivation . if what pass my mind, what people agree to are true .. that's too bad .
i want to believe the best in you .
but what i want doesn't matter at all, right ?
respect is respect . it's the base .
and for you, i give my respect .
it's sad you don't respect my respect . our respect .
you act stubbornly . you say things before you think of them carefully . you ignore people's feelings . you think low on us .
are you satisfied with the way you act now ? does it taste that good ? are we that bad ? must you treat us so ?
i've been thinking .. and up until now, i don't understand your mind . i doubt your motivation . if what pass my mind, what people agree to are true .. that's too bad .
i want to believe the best in you .
but what i want doesn't matter at all, right ?
respect is respect . it's the base .
and for you, i give my respect .
Kamis, 11 Agustus 2011
berpengaruh .
sepertinya gw sedang dalam bijak mode on . oh mungkin karena bokap gw yang lagi berada di samping gw sambil mengawasi apa yang gw kerjakan dengan lappy ini .. oops, dia pergi . tingkat kesadaran bijak gw langsung menurun :D
kali ini, topik yang gw angkat adalah pengaruh . apa kalian memiliki orang-orang yang bisa memberi pengaruh dalam hidup kalian ? setidaknya keluarga dan orang yang disukai lah ya . tetapi apakah kalian menyadari bahwa kalian juga memiliki pengaruh dalam hidup orang lain ?
dalam kegiatan mpa (sejenis mos kampus) jurusan, gw didaulat menjadi sie kedisiplinan . aslinya, seksi marah2 . hari kamis kemarin kami mengadakan briefing dengan para maba (mahasiswa baru) . acaranya perkenalan panitia, pemberitahuan tugas dan tatib mpa dan juga pelatihan yel yel . sejak dari awal, sie kedisiplinan ini sudah *berusaha* menciptakan suasana tegang *yang tampaknya agak efektif* . mulai dari saat pemilihan ketua angkatan, digunakan nada dingin *gw, kak utari* maupun nada jutek *kak damay* atau nada mengintimidasi *icha* . puncaknya saat pelatihan yel-yel .
gw sedang berjalan-jalan sambil mengawasi latihan yelyel yang agak tidak bersemangat itu . hingga samapailah gw di barisan paling depan, dan bertemu muka dengan seorang maba yang sudah agak 'famous' karena kesombongannya saat wawancara bem jurusan . gw sebenarnya tidak mau ambil pusing kalau dia sombong, well here is jakarta so it's so common . tapi si anak ini gerakannya ga bersemangat dan ga nyanyi pula . alhasil, gerakan teman2 di belakang si doi ini juga ikut2an ancur . gw liatin, dan di situ gw bentak yang kalau ga salah, " kamu ! kenapa gerakannya masih jelek banget begitu ! sudah di paling depan .. diperhatikan tidak saat diberi contoh ?!"
anak itu diam mematung . ga mematung deng, karena abis itu gw liat dia jadi agak 'trembling' gitu . pikir gw, wah wah bahaya nih .. akhirnya gw kasi alesan dengan nada yang gw lunakkan, "kamu itu ada di paling depan . tunjukkan gerakan yang terbaik . teman2 kamu yang di belakang mencontoh kamu, paham ?" baru di situ dia agak 'sadar' dan sedikit menyantai, terus bisa jawab iya .
kita punya pengaruh . kata2 yang kita keluarkan punya pengaruh . terutama, kepada mereka yang menganggap kita kakak atau senior mereka . ketika gw main2 ke ekskul paskib di sma, gw ketemu denga para junior gw . mereka nanya gw kuliah di mana dan gw jawab di unj dengan nada kasual, karena gw tau itu unj tidak seprestisius ui misalnya, walau gw sendiri bukan tipe yang ambil pusing dengan hal seperti itu . tetapi mereka menatap gw dengan takjub karena gw berhasil masuk universitas negeri, dan kemudian asyik menanyakan di mana gw les dulu, gw dapat bocoran dari mana, blablabla .
ada juga teman gw, yang juga menganggap gw kakak, dan sepertinya bisa menelan mentah2 saran, kritikan atau pujian saat ia 'agak' tertekan . dan kita semua punya pengaruh itu kepada orang lain, tetapi kita dan orang itu belum tentu menyadarinya . setelah gw menyadari pengaruh ini, gw merasakan juga beratnya tanggung jawab yang harus diterima . tapi di situlah letak kedewasaan yang sesungguhnya diuji . bukan dari banyaknya orang yang menerima pengaruh, tetapi bagaimana kita bisa mempertanggungjawabkan pengaruh itu .
well well well .. kayaknya gw sedang dalam sotoy mode . honestly, gw sudah pusing selama 3 hari belakangan ini .. :)
jadi mohon maaf kalau postingan agak sotoy dan sangat tidak sesuai kenyataan .. di mana di sini saya seolah2 sangat bijak padahal tidak ...*bow
tetapi sampai jumpa di postingan sotoy berikutnya ! :D
xoxo
kali ini, topik yang gw angkat adalah pengaruh . apa kalian memiliki orang-orang yang bisa memberi pengaruh dalam hidup kalian ? setidaknya keluarga dan orang yang disukai lah ya . tetapi apakah kalian menyadari bahwa kalian juga memiliki pengaruh dalam hidup orang lain ?
dalam kegiatan mpa (sejenis mos kampus) jurusan, gw didaulat menjadi sie kedisiplinan . aslinya, seksi marah2 . hari kamis kemarin kami mengadakan briefing dengan para maba (mahasiswa baru) . acaranya perkenalan panitia, pemberitahuan tugas dan tatib mpa dan juga pelatihan yel yel . sejak dari awal, sie kedisiplinan ini sudah *berusaha* menciptakan suasana tegang *yang tampaknya agak efektif* . mulai dari saat pemilihan ketua angkatan, digunakan nada dingin *gw, kak utari* maupun nada jutek *kak damay* atau nada mengintimidasi *icha* . puncaknya saat pelatihan yel-yel .
gw sedang berjalan-jalan sambil mengawasi latihan yelyel yang agak tidak bersemangat itu . hingga samapailah gw di barisan paling depan, dan bertemu muka dengan seorang maba yang sudah agak 'famous' karena kesombongannya saat wawancara bem jurusan . gw sebenarnya tidak mau ambil pusing kalau dia sombong, well here is jakarta so it's so common . tapi si anak ini gerakannya ga bersemangat dan ga nyanyi pula . alhasil, gerakan teman2 di belakang si doi ini juga ikut2an ancur . gw liatin, dan di situ gw bentak yang kalau ga salah, " kamu ! kenapa gerakannya masih jelek banget begitu ! sudah di paling depan .. diperhatikan tidak saat diberi contoh ?!"
anak itu diam mematung . ga mematung deng, karena abis itu gw liat dia jadi agak 'trembling' gitu . pikir gw, wah wah bahaya nih .. akhirnya gw kasi alesan dengan nada yang gw lunakkan, "kamu itu ada di paling depan . tunjukkan gerakan yang terbaik . teman2 kamu yang di belakang mencontoh kamu, paham ?" baru di situ dia agak 'sadar' dan sedikit menyantai, terus bisa jawab iya .
kita punya pengaruh . kata2 yang kita keluarkan punya pengaruh . terutama, kepada mereka yang menganggap kita kakak atau senior mereka . ketika gw main2 ke ekskul paskib di sma, gw ketemu denga para junior gw . mereka nanya gw kuliah di mana dan gw jawab di unj dengan nada kasual, karena gw tau itu unj tidak seprestisius ui misalnya, walau gw sendiri bukan tipe yang ambil pusing dengan hal seperti itu . tetapi mereka menatap gw dengan takjub karena gw berhasil masuk universitas negeri, dan kemudian asyik menanyakan di mana gw les dulu, gw dapat bocoran dari mana, blablabla .
ada juga teman gw, yang juga menganggap gw kakak, dan sepertinya bisa menelan mentah2 saran, kritikan atau pujian saat ia 'agak' tertekan . dan kita semua punya pengaruh itu kepada orang lain, tetapi kita dan orang itu belum tentu menyadarinya . setelah gw menyadari pengaruh ini, gw merasakan juga beratnya tanggung jawab yang harus diterima . tapi di situlah letak kedewasaan yang sesungguhnya diuji . bukan dari banyaknya orang yang menerima pengaruh, tetapi bagaimana kita bisa mempertanggungjawabkan pengaruh itu .
well well well .. kayaknya gw sedang dalam sotoy mode . honestly, gw sudah pusing selama 3 hari belakangan ini .. :)
jadi mohon maaf kalau postingan agak sotoy dan sangat tidak sesuai kenyataan .. di mana di sini saya seolah2 sangat bijak padahal tidak ...*bow
tetapi sampai jumpa di postingan sotoy berikutnya ! :D
xoxo
Jumat, 22 Juli 2011
one point .
"Ems, lo sendiri pernah bilang, hal tersulit yang penah lo lakui adalah saat harus pura-pura peduli seseorang yang nggak lo cintai. Menurut gue, itu belum apa-apa.
Lo minta gue untuk berpura-pura nggak peduli sama lo yang jelas-jelas gue cintai sepenuh hati. Rasanya sakit banget, Ems. Dan gue mulai capek menyalahkan diri gue karena itu."
Jo from Pillow Talk
tanya kenapa gw nulis gini .. fuhh .
malam ini, gw telah melewati satu titik . namun apakah itu titik balik atau titik yang akan meneruskan langkah gw yang ga menentu ini .. entahlah .
Lo minta gue untuk berpura-pura nggak peduli sama lo yang jelas-jelas gue cintai sepenuh hati. Rasanya sakit banget, Ems. Dan gue mulai capek menyalahkan diri gue karena itu."
Jo from Pillow Talk
tanya kenapa gw nulis gini .. fuhh .
malam ini, gw telah melewati satu titik . namun apakah itu titik balik atau titik yang akan meneruskan langkah gw yang ga menentu ini .. entahlah .
Selasa, 19 Juli 2011
happy ending
hello evribodeeh !! aa gile lu ndro .. rasa2nya udah lama abis ga ngepost random gini . sekali2 boleh lah yuk yak yuk ;)
dan o dan .. gw ngepost dari hp !!! mm let's hope it's gonna work out . however .. shall we ?
as you know, sekarang gw mahasiswi .. dan gw lagi libur bok !! tapi libur ga ngapa2in juga sh . rencana mau les, gaje mau les apa dimana kapan sama siapa semalam berbuat apa .. bla . kerja juga mau kerja apa coba gw ? yah harepan gw sih gw bisa ngelesin anak orang lagi .. lumayan buat sebulan ini pan . tapi apa dikata .. sampe sekarang ga terealisasi tuh . gw cuma bisa berhibernasi bak serigala kutub*maklum, gw lagi naksir berat siberian husky .
gw juga menghabiskan sebagian besar waktu gw bermain lappy atau membaca . hell yeah, bukunya sih itu2 aja alias ga nambah2 . agak bosen sih,tapi lumayan lah buat mutilasi waktu .
dan kebanyakan bukunya itu novel . dan baru tadi siang gw nambah komik 6 biji . dan namanya juga bacaan ringan yang fiktif, temanya jelas ga jauh*(deket banget malah) sama cinta .
selama kehidupan gw yg fana ini, gw sering dapet julukan . kebanyakan ya dari sifat gw aja . contoh, kebo . yup, karena tidur adalah kegiatan favorit gw . waktu gw pernah ditanya kegiatan apa yang paling ga gw suka, gw mikirin kata ujian, dosen killer, kuliah, tugas, cucian .. tapi pas giliran gw jawab, yang gw ucapkan secara reflek adalah 'bangun tidur' .
gw juga sering dibilang tomboy*(itu akhirannya 'y' atau 'i' sih??) . ya entah karena gw yang benci pink, jarang pake rok, engga dandan rapi, suara berat, dll . apa lah . tapi yang jelas gw dibuang jauh2 dari kotak kategori feminin .
dan kalo dari 3B yang mesti diusung perempuan, alias beauty brain behaviour, gw paling sering dikaitkan dengan brain . yup, banyak yang bilang gw pinter . ga ngerti dari sudut mana juga sih .. tapi mungkin karena gw sangat sangat tidak cocok dengan 2 kategori lainnya . behaviour ? yah, itu debatable sih .. oke, gw ga bejat lah . jauh dari bejat . tapi beauty ??? well I'm not denying that I'm beautiful .. but let's say that I have many qualities, but beauty is not so into me .
dan omong2 ya mengenai behaviour ini, salah satu cap jelek dalam gw yang berhubungan karena sikap adalah sinis .. dalam hal cinta .
o come on fellas ..! "menurut kamu/lo, cinta itu apa?" if you are type who eat that shit out, well count me out .
kalo sekarang sih gw biasanya jawab "makan tuh cinta" sambil ketawa2 . tapi kalo dulu .. jawaban gw suka dianggap ekstrim dan kena lembaga sensor . contoh kasus, pernah dalam suatu ketika gw lagi sama beberapa orang .. di situ ada *ehem*gebetan*ehem dan *ehem*hts*ehem* gw . dan gw jawab dengan santainya "love is bullshit ." seinget gw, di situ hts gw tuh agak kaget dan dia serta temen2nya komen kalo gw ga sepantasnya ngomong kayak gitu karena cinta tuh bukan omong kosong . dan dia bilang kalo gw tuh belum tau aja rasanya cinta, dan gw harus ngebuka hati blabla ..
okay, gw memang sinis untuk feeling yang satu ini . gw lebih percaya kepada konsep 'love relationship' dibanding konsep 'love' itu sendiri . kalo 'love' hanya sekedar kata sifat atau kata benda .. gw pernah kok merasakan . gw pernah kok memiliki . tapi, cinta itu kan juga kata kerja .. dan gw ga punya cukup kepercayaan diri . apalagi mempercayai orang ya ? hhe ..
however .. gw tetap mempercayai happy ending . sekonyol apa pun adegan happy ending itu, gw tetep akan terharu dan bahagia sebahagia2nya . karena dari apa yang pernah gw rasakan dari cinta .. happy adalah elemen terbesar . dan kalau suatu saat gw mengalami happy ending, apa pun itu .. siapa tau di situ ada cinta yang menunggu buat gw . yah harapan yang muluk, memang .. tapi itu tetap suatu harapan (:
dan o dan .. gw ngepost dari hp !!! mm let's hope it's gonna work out . however .. shall we ?
as you know, sekarang gw mahasiswi .. dan gw lagi libur bok !! tapi libur ga ngapa2in juga sh . rencana mau les, gaje mau les apa dimana kapan sama siapa semalam berbuat apa .. bla . kerja juga mau kerja apa coba gw ? yah harepan gw sih gw bisa ngelesin anak orang lagi .. lumayan buat sebulan ini pan . tapi apa dikata .. sampe sekarang ga terealisasi tuh . gw cuma bisa berhibernasi bak serigala kutub*maklum, gw lagi naksir berat siberian husky .
gw juga menghabiskan sebagian besar waktu gw bermain lappy atau membaca . hell yeah, bukunya sih itu2 aja alias ga nambah2 . agak bosen sih,tapi lumayan lah buat mutilasi waktu .
dan kebanyakan bukunya itu novel . dan baru tadi siang gw nambah komik 6 biji . dan namanya juga bacaan ringan yang fiktif, temanya jelas ga jauh*(deket banget malah) sama cinta .
selama kehidupan gw yg fana ini, gw sering dapet julukan . kebanyakan ya dari sifat gw aja . contoh, kebo . yup, karena tidur adalah kegiatan favorit gw . waktu gw pernah ditanya kegiatan apa yang paling ga gw suka, gw mikirin kata ujian, dosen killer, kuliah, tugas, cucian .. tapi pas giliran gw jawab, yang gw ucapkan secara reflek adalah 'bangun tidur' .
gw juga sering dibilang tomboy*(itu akhirannya 'y' atau 'i' sih??) . ya entah karena gw yang benci pink, jarang pake rok, engga dandan rapi, suara berat, dll . apa lah . tapi yang jelas gw dibuang jauh2 dari kotak kategori feminin .
dan kalo dari 3B yang mesti diusung perempuan, alias beauty brain behaviour, gw paling sering dikaitkan dengan brain . yup, banyak yang bilang gw pinter . ga ngerti dari sudut mana juga sih .. tapi mungkin karena gw sangat sangat tidak cocok dengan 2 kategori lainnya . behaviour ? yah, itu debatable sih .. oke, gw ga bejat lah . jauh dari bejat . tapi beauty ??? well I'm not denying that I'm beautiful .. but let's say that I have many qualities, but beauty is not so into me .
dan omong2 ya mengenai behaviour ini, salah satu cap jelek dalam gw yang berhubungan karena sikap adalah sinis .. dalam hal cinta .
o come on fellas ..! "menurut kamu/lo, cinta itu apa?" if you are type who eat that shit out, well count me out .
kalo sekarang sih gw biasanya jawab "makan tuh cinta" sambil ketawa2 . tapi kalo dulu .. jawaban gw suka dianggap ekstrim dan kena lembaga sensor . contoh kasus, pernah dalam suatu ketika gw lagi sama beberapa orang .. di situ ada *ehem*gebetan*ehem dan *ehem*hts*ehem* gw . dan gw jawab dengan santainya "love is bullshit ." seinget gw, di situ hts gw tuh agak kaget dan dia serta temen2nya komen kalo gw ga sepantasnya ngomong kayak gitu karena cinta tuh bukan omong kosong . dan dia bilang kalo gw tuh belum tau aja rasanya cinta, dan gw harus ngebuka hati blabla ..
you don't know the story, and you don't know what I've been through .
you don't know me .
okay, gw memang sinis untuk feeling yang satu ini . gw lebih percaya kepada konsep 'love relationship' dibanding konsep 'love' itu sendiri . kalo 'love' hanya sekedar kata sifat atau kata benda .. gw pernah kok merasakan . gw pernah kok memiliki . tapi, cinta itu kan juga kata kerja .. dan gw ga punya cukup kepercayaan diri . apalagi mempercayai orang ya ? hhe ..
however .. gw tetap mempercayai happy ending . sekonyol apa pun adegan happy ending itu, gw tetep akan terharu dan bahagia sebahagia2nya . karena dari apa yang pernah gw rasakan dari cinta .. happy adalah elemen terbesar . dan kalau suatu saat gw mengalami happy ending, apa pun itu .. siapa tau di situ ada cinta yang menunggu buat gw . yah harapan yang muluk, memang .. tapi itu tetap suatu harapan (:
Senin, 04 Juli 2011
7 things i would do before married
there are 7 things i would do before married, in case i already have a fiancee . but i have to do it alone . well, that's what becca told me in order to make this list . so .. shall we ?
1. i would travel all around this world alone . is it way too much just-a-dream ? however, it's a lifetime dream of mine .
2. i would work out . i would shape my body fitly, so i can wear any wedding dress i want without being worried of looking weird in that oufit .
3. i would make money as much as possible . marriage will spend a lot of money, you know . since it's OUR wedding that i and he marry together, it makes us equal . i don't want to be a girl who only knows about mooching from her fiancee and family . if i do that, then what will i turn to be when i'm already his wife ?? ugh ..
4. i would make a short film of myself about my single life with my girlfriends . we'll spend crazy days out together since it shouldn't happen anymore after the marriage .
5. i would visit and spend time with my husband-to-be's family without him as much and as great as possible . they will be my family soon, and they are people who my lover love . i want to be part of them and make them happy to have me in their side .
6. i would do some secret research how to be good wife . ugh, there's no way i would tell my fiancee or people around me since it's totally embarrassing . no, it will be a secret . since i'm sure i never marry before and it will be my first .. i better prepare myself .
7. i would finish all my unfinished business . i would share forgiveness and as for forgiveness from people i hurt before . after the marriage, i'll become one with my husband . it's enough to bring this prefectless self of me, and i don't want him to worry about my past .
i guess that's it for now . well, since i'm only human .. it can't be changed in another second, you know . besides, i never think about it before . dude, i don't even be in dating mode on, so this list is so out of my mind .
i don't know why, my mood is pretty good today . and i find a pretty stunning blog(for me) and it inspires me for other post .
well, see ya !
Sabtu, 02 Juli 2011
13 things i would do for you if you are my boyfriend
i just did a blogwalking .. and finally i see an interesting post so i decided to make a similar one . and actually she posted 15 things, but since i like number 13, i'll just write down 13 things :p so, here we go ..
1. i would always be true and faithful to you . for me, trust is really above all in any relationship, so i'm pretty sure this point is no different in a dating relationship . i don't say i won't lie, but i can promise you that i always try my BEST to be honest with you . and i hope so do you .
2. i would let you place your friends or games before me, since i understand it very well that they are soo boy's world .
3. i would send you messages or just show you with an act that i really care and love you at random moments, as long as it comforts you .
4. i would try my best to cheer you up when you get problem but you don't wanna tell me . well i guess it's all i can do, since i don't really want to force you to do anything, yet i still want to be helpful .
5. i would massage you when you are tired, although i'm way mooooore tired than you .
6. i would search what you like, then slowly change into your type as long as i also feel okay . i don't really mind to do a little change, because i believe you and however, fashion do change :p
7. i would try my best to understand you hobby and your study or work, so i won't be completely clueless about that part of your life, even we can enjoy a conversation about it .
8. i would learn to cook . i like cooking, but all this time i hate receipt and prefer to do some experiment, and it used to be not so good . but for you, i'll learn to cook properly, so i can serve you some good meals .
9. i would let you lean on me so you can rest and sleep more comfortably .
10. i would wash your cloth, (not clothes) that you accidentally leave and i'm the one who find it, with my own hand . i don't want to take risk your cloth to be broken because of my washing machine .
11. i would treat you . well, if i have money, time and i'm the one who ask for it .. why not ? you're not my walking-bank, you know .
12. i would help you do your work . just anything for your future, for your own good sake .
13. i would study hard, learn new things and improve myself, so you won't be disappointed and even be proud to have me as your couple .
in fact, i don't have boyfriend right now . i'm totally single . well, it's not like i use this post to attract a guy .. lol it sooo not gonna happen :D i just want to write something sweet, since my blog is all about my random freaky thought . i really hope this post will be quite entertaining, yet couraging for you mates (:
o and the list above is list of things i would do for him in general issue and it's all about good things . i've already thought of some things i would for him in way more practice .. well, we'll see about it later .
you can make similar post, then show it to me . i'd really like to share these things as light and fun conversation between friends .
Jumat, 01 Juli 2011
flamingo
hell yeah . minggu ini tidak terlalu baik untuk kesehatan dan kecantikan(?) saya . secara bisa dikatakan, banyak kejadian yang piiiiiiiiiiiip*sensor .
so now, what else should i say ? well maybe i can explain what 'flamingo' means ..
see the picture above ? i believe you should understand what flamingo is, even before you see the picture . yup, flamingo is a bird . usually people use a pair of fake flamingo as garden's decoration . why ? because their neck is so long, and a pair of this bird can perform 'love symbol . and above all that, they are pink .
see, if you know me pretty well .. you'll see that i hate pink . maybe hate is too hard, so let me say i dislike pink . and sometimes it turns to hate, especially when my sister and mother force me to use it . don't know why, my head get dizzy and my eyes sore when i see something pink, especially shocking pink . so you can say cause i can say .. flamingo is something i don't really like . but actually i like the name . flamingo . it sounds exotic and beautiful .
and it all starts because my friend, ryan . one day i got mad and i shout 'F!!!' instead of saying frontally 'F*CK!!!' . there were ryan and olive in that room . olive gave me silly grin as i walked in and ryan just sit and concentrate to his hp .
olive : why do you shout 'F'? what did that 'F' suppose to mean ?
me : dunno . you can replace it with any word started with 'F', i guess .
olive : f*ck .
me : there you go . o ryan .. how can you look so beautiful today ?
ryan : uh, what ?
ryan didn't know me coming until i said that . but it's pretty true . olive and i laughed at him together . ryan is our friend, one male friend that is so difficult to have since there is only 5% of male population in our major . and he is very beautiful . and since he is close with olive and charen, we always insult his gender .
ryan : what did ael just say ?
olive : she said you look beautiful today .
ryan : ugh, ael ..
me : hahaha
olive : err ryan .. ael just said 'f' when she entered this room . what do you think this 'f' suppose to mean ?
ryan : err .. fruity ? flamingo ?
olive : why did you think off all those girly thing ?? FRUITY ?? FLAMINGO ?? THAT PINK BIRD ?
olive & me : HUAHAHAHAHAHAHA*LOL
yeah, our ryan is so beautiful and feminine .. and he always thinks femininely either . but since that time, i got an idea . flamingo is pink, which i hate . and this flamingo also starts with 'f' . so instead of shouting 'F!!!' when i get mad .. i can say 'flamingo' calmly and none will notice the meaning .
and why do i write this ? dunno . maybe as an explanation for my 'other' blog, what that 'flamingo' word means . besides i have no other idea of what i should write here . yup, here .. because most of my ideas go into other place . i have another blog !! yey .. that 'other' blog will contain my days more honestly .. emotionally .. rationally .. rough yet sensitive #halah
i won't leave this blog, anyway . i'll still write my random story, no worries . that 'other' blog is only opened for me .. and unknown people .
so, see ya !!
so now, what else should i say ? well maybe i can explain what 'flamingo' means ..
see the picture above ? i believe you should understand what flamingo is, even before you see the picture . yup, flamingo is a bird . usually people use a pair of fake flamingo as garden's decoration . why ? because their neck is so long, and a pair of this bird can perform 'love symbol . and above all that, they are pink .
see, if you know me pretty well .. you'll see that i hate pink . maybe hate is too hard, so let me say i dislike pink . and sometimes it turns to hate, especially when my sister and mother force me to use it . don't know why, my head get dizzy and my eyes sore when i see something pink, especially shocking pink . so you can say cause i can say .. flamingo is something i don't really like . but actually i like the name . flamingo . it sounds exotic and beautiful .
and it all starts because my friend, ryan . one day i got mad and i shout 'F!!!' instead of saying frontally 'F*CK!!!' . there were ryan and olive in that room . olive gave me silly grin as i walked in and ryan just sit and concentrate to his hp .
olive : why do you shout 'F'? what did that 'F' suppose to mean ?
me : dunno . you can replace it with any word started with 'F', i guess .
olive : f*ck .
me : there you go . o ryan .. how can you look so beautiful today ?
ryan : uh, what ?
ryan didn't know me coming until i said that . but it's pretty true . olive and i laughed at him together . ryan is our friend, one male friend that is so difficult to have since there is only 5% of male population in our major . and he is very beautiful . and since he is close with olive and charen, we always insult his gender .
ryan : what did ael just say ?
olive : she said you look beautiful today .
ryan : ugh, ael ..
me : hahaha
olive : err ryan .. ael just said 'f' when she entered this room . what do you think this 'f' suppose to mean ?
ryan : err .. fruity ? flamingo ?
olive : why did you think off all those girly thing ?? FRUITY ?? FLAMINGO ?? THAT PINK BIRD ?
olive & me : HUAHAHAHAHAHAHA*LOL
yeah, our ryan is so beautiful and feminine .. and he always thinks femininely either . but since that time, i got an idea . flamingo is pink, which i hate . and this flamingo also starts with 'f' . so instead of shouting 'F!!!' when i get mad .. i can say 'flamingo' calmly and none will notice the meaning .
and why do i write this ? dunno . maybe as an explanation for my 'other' blog, what that 'flamingo' word means . besides i have no other idea of what i should write here . yup, here .. because most of my ideas go into other place . i have another blog !! yey .. that 'other' blog will contain my days more honestly .. emotionally .. rationally .. rough yet sensitive #halah
i won't leave this blog, anyway . i'll still write my random story, no worries . that 'other' blog is only opened for me .. and unknown people .
so, see ya !!
Kamis, 26 Mei 2011
shock .
yesterday,
a male friend said to me ..
actually,
it gives me such a shock . really . i mean, i think about it all night .. until now ..
and i can't stop thinking about it yet .
wow .
a male friend said to me ..
"lo pasti jarang banget jatuh cinta ."
"i bet you don't fall in love often ."
actually,
it gives me such a shock . really . i mean, i think about it all night .. until now ..
and i can't stop thinking about it yet .
wow .
Selasa, 26 April 2011
just waiting .
ya .. what are you thinking ? your time will come . it will come itself when it is the time . (:
you always used to think so, remember ? you do have optimistic personality, and it can be approved by calculating it . what you've done .. what you've been through .. it will get paid soon .
so ..
stop screwing up your mind and just get back to sleep .
P:S : oh, and stop having nightmare please . have you no idea of what you've done ?? really ..
Senin, 25 April 2011
beten
yeah, i can do nothing to help . yeah, even i have no courage to talk to you now .
you've been worried and sad, yet you still help me .
silly me, eh ?
God, he's a good person
he's worth Your help
i hate seeing him worried and sad
but i can do nothing
i know You can do everything
please give Your best to bless him
don't let him feel bad anymore
amen .
you've been worried and sad, yet you still help me .
silly me, eh ?
God, he's a good person
he's worth Your help
i hate seeing him worried and sad
but i can do nothing
i know You can do everything
please give Your best to bless him
don't let him feel bad anymore
amen .
Jumat, 01 April 2011
@jeisshawkmoore
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itu hari terakir gw ketemu sama jeje . sebelum ia terbang .. menuju paris, perancis .
gw dateng ke rumah jeje, dengan maksud baik, sebagai kawan baik . yah, memang kaami tidak jelas asal muasal mengapa bisa berteman . teman sekolah bukan, teman gereja bukan bisa dibilang teman nemu, kalau gamau dibilang mungut .
first time i saw jeje, ga ada tendensi apa pun . dia duduk di sofa di rumah temen gw, ajeng . ga ngobrol banyak juga .. dan setelah itu kita ketemu lagi gimana juga gw lupa, tapi yang pasti kemudian kita jadi deket . berteman lah .
hohoho, bukan faktor gw .. tapi lebih ke jeje . dia salah satu cewek paling supel, friendly, bawel, empuk dan asik yang pernah gw kenal . walau belum lama temenan, tapi gw berani kok ngambil kesimpulan kalo dia temen yang bisa sampe kakek nenek . she's pretty worth it .
i'm gonna miss her so much .
kangen janjian nyastra bareng di twitter ..
kangen ngelpon dia malem2 ..
kangen janjian buru2 di blok m buat jalan ke rumah elysa ..
kangen dapet bujukan setan buat ke rumah dia spontan ..
kangen ketemuan di pelangi, makan dabalyuw ..
kangen begadang di rumah elysa ..
kangen ngedenger cerita dia tentang mr. orange atau si mantannya yang hots itu ..
kangen ngeliat dia makan .. lahap bener :)
kangen semua tentang jeje . jeje enak banget dipeluk ..
tuh kan kangen lagi .
jeje sekarang sudah terbang ke perancis . rencananya, ia akan tinggal di sana selama 5 tahun, sekaligus mengambil S2 . gw iri .. iri gilak sama dia . tapi itu semua akan memotivasi gw . gw pasti akan ketemu dia .. di dataran Eropa sana . dan saat itu, gw pasti sudah sangat lancar berbahasa inggris, jerman, semoga perancis dan spanyol atau italia atau apa lah ..
jeje, bae2 yaa lau di sana . mengutip kata ketua rokris gw ..
itu hari terakir gw ketemu sama jeje . sebelum ia terbang .. menuju paris, perancis .
gw dateng ke rumah jeje, dengan maksud baik, sebagai kawan baik . yah, memang kaami tidak jelas asal muasal mengapa bisa berteman . teman sekolah bukan, teman gereja bukan bisa dibilang teman nemu, kalau gamau dibilang mungut .
first time i saw jeje, ga ada tendensi apa pun . dia duduk di sofa di rumah temen gw, ajeng . ga ngobrol banyak juga .. dan setelah itu kita ketemu lagi gimana juga gw lupa, tapi yang pasti kemudian kita jadi deket . berteman lah .
hohoho, bukan faktor gw .. tapi lebih ke jeje . dia salah satu cewek paling supel, friendly, bawel, empuk dan asik yang pernah gw kenal . walau belum lama temenan, tapi gw berani kok ngambil kesimpulan kalo dia temen yang bisa sampe kakek nenek . she's pretty worth it .
i'm gonna miss her so much .
kangen janjian nyastra bareng di twitter ..
kangen ngelpon dia malem2 ..
kangen janjian buru2 di blok m buat jalan ke rumah elysa ..
kangen dapet bujukan setan buat ke rumah dia spontan ..
kangen ketemuan di pelangi, makan dabalyuw ..
kangen begadang di rumah elysa ..
kangen ngedenger cerita dia tentang mr. orange atau si mantannya yang hots itu ..
kangen ngeliat dia makan .. lahap bener :)
kangen semua tentang jeje . jeje enak banget dipeluk ..
tuh kan kangen lagi .
jeje sekarang sudah terbang ke perancis . rencananya, ia akan tinggal di sana selama 5 tahun, sekaligus mengambil S2 . gw iri .. iri gilak sama dia . tapi itu semua akan memotivasi gw . gw pasti akan ketemu dia .. di dataran Eropa sana . dan saat itu, gw pasti sudah sangat lancar berbahasa inggris, jerman, semoga perancis dan spanyol atau italia atau apa lah ..
jeje, bae2 yaa lau di sana . mengutip kata ketua rokris gw ..
sampai bertemu lagi di gerbang kesuksesan !!*AMIN !!!! #edisidengarkandoabaimyaoloh
Jumat, 11 Maret 2011
adventure
upon the hearth the fire is red,
beneath the roof there is a bed;
but not yet weary our feet,
still round the corner we may meet
a sudden tree or a standing stone
that none have seen but we alone
tree and flower and leaf and grass
let them pass ! let them pass !
hill and water under sky
pass them by ! pass them by !
still round the corner there may wait
a new road or a secret gate,
and though we pass them by today
tomorrow we may come this way
and take hidden paths that run
towards the moon or to the sun
apple, thorn, and nut and sloe,
let them go ! let them go !
sand an stone and pool and dell,
fare you well ! fare you well !
home is behind, the world ahead,
and there are many paths to tread
through shadows to the edge of night,
until the stars are all alight .
the world behind and home ahead,
we'll wander back to home and bed .
mist and twilight, cloud and shade,
away all fade ! away all fade !
fire and lamp, and meat and bread,
and then to bed ! and then to bed !
originally taken from Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
beneath the roof there is a bed;
but not yet weary our feet,
still round the corner we may meet
a sudden tree or a standing stone
that none have seen but we alone
tree and flower and leaf and grass
let them pass ! let them pass !
hill and water under sky
pass them by ! pass them by !
still round the corner there may wait
a new road or a secret gate,
and though we pass them by today
tomorrow we may come this way
and take hidden paths that run
towards the moon or to the sun
apple, thorn, and nut and sloe,
let them go ! let them go !
sand an stone and pool and dell,
fare you well ! fare you well !
home is behind, the world ahead,
and there are many paths to tread
through shadows to the edge of night,
until the stars are all alight .
the world behind and home ahead,
we'll wander back to home and bed .
mist and twilight, cloud and shade,
away all fade ! away all fade !
fire and lamp, and meat and bread,
and then to bed ! and then to bed !
originally taken from Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
Selasa, 15 Februari 2011
valentine
pasti banyak kan yang ngepost dengan tema kaya judul gw ? hhe ..
well, hari valentine jatuh pada tanggal 14 februari . tahun ini, gw sudah prepare . dalam agenda gw, itu adalah hari gw masuk kuliah lagi . itu harpitnas . itu senin . so gw prepare .. mulai dari tema playlist hari itu . gw sampe bikin playlist khusus dengan judul loveless . isinya lagu2 broken heart .. eh break up deng . gw bahkan menyimpan kaus hitam polos gww agak tidak dipakai dikotori . dua hari sebelumnya, gw membiasakan kaki gw dengan seharian memakai sepatu yang mau gw pakai pas hari senin itu . wedges, ga terlalu tinggi*(sial) dan berwarna hitam . salah satu favorit gw .
namun sebelumnya gw perjelas ya .. playlist gw bukan menggambarkan keadaan gw saat itu .. yang masi berlaku sampai saat ini alias jomblo . kan ceritanya gw mau nyiapin playlist buat hari valentine .. tapi bingung mau tema apa . maunya spesial gitu kan, pake tema . lope lope .. malas . terus temen gw*(yg kebetulan pada jomblo) ngajak jalan bareng hari itu . dan mereka minta tema patah hati . pokoknya saat itu temen2 gw kebetulan ceritanya pada ga happy lovey gitu . yauda, gw pun terinspirasi . valentine kan intinya hati . berarti patah hati bole dong ? kan ada hati juga intinya . fix deh tuh tema playlist ! dan baju sepatu .. ya disesuaikan dengan playlist . gw bahkan dandan hari itu . i want to look *(agak) beautiful :p
gimana ? et dah ..
GATOT .
tau ujan ga ? idup kan pas hari valentine ? ujan mamen .. dari pagi . gw yang tadinya mau melangkah ke pintu kelas dengan langkah penuh percaya diri .. malah terbungkuk-bungkuk megang dinding sambil berserapah, terus ke kamar mandi dan memeras baju gw .. lantai langsung banjir dong . percuma abis tuh bedak dan rambut yang udah gw rapiin serapi mungkin .. gw malah berbau sampah jakarta yang numpuk di pantai ancol -____-
ya begitulah hari valentine . gw cuma bisa menggigil di bawah ac sambil mencoba memahami ocehan dosen dengan baju kuyup dan rambut lepek . mood gw menikmati hari itu lenyap . tadinya gw mau jalan, gw malah stay di rumah dan maen the simms . cih .
sekarang apa ya ? itu kejadian pas hari h .. tapi ngomongin valentine ga afdol ngomongin lovelife . so, how about my lovelife so far ?
sebenernya gw ga terlalu suka menceritakan hal ini . bukannya apa-apa .. tapi karena memang tidak terlalu ada yang bisa diceritakan . apa lagi ? kan udah pernah ditulis di posting2an sebelumnya ..
fine, gw tidak mau berpacaran saat ini . oke, gw belum mau pacaran . kenapa ? apa ga ada orang lo suka ?
menjawab pertanyaan pertama .. gw belum mau berpacaran saat ini karena mau konsen kuliah . owh okayy so basi but it's fact . gw merasa gw belom menjadi apa-apa . gw hanya bisa menjadi orang lo cintai dan mencintai lo .. oke, ngelantur :D tapi gitulah . well, mungkin sama orang tertentu mau .. kan gw gatau gimana ke depannya . tapi maunya sih belum dulu . dan .. kalo bisa sih, cita-cita gw pacaran untuk serius . gw ga butuh supir pribadi atau atm berjalan, no . tapi kalo bisa, gw mau pacaran dengan orang yang sudah berpenghasilan sendiri . no offense lho, bukannya minta dibayarin atau apa .. tapi lebih enak begitu lah . kan kesian orang tua juga :)
menjawab pertanyaan kedua .. well well well . ada ..
ah kan udah gw bilang udah dibahas di postingan sebelumnya . nanti kupingnya gatel lagi diomongin melulu . next question, 1 to go .
lo ga ngerayain sama dia ?
engga lah, siapa gw ..
lo .. *********************** ?*(demi kenyamanan bersama, pertanyaan ini kami sensor)
hah ? ah, apa banget nanyanya .. wei, udah lebih dari 3 pertanyaan ! wuoo menyalahi aturan kau ..
jawab aja sih !
nambah nilai gw gitu kalo jawab ?
jangan boong el, jujur ..
gw ga boong . gw ga seneng boong .
tapi lo gamau jawab !
lah, ga boong kan gw ? udah sih, gw mau tidur .. besok kuliah pagi . misi ..
angela ..!
well, hari valentine jatuh pada tanggal 14 februari . tahun ini, gw sudah prepare . dalam agenda gw, itu adalah hari gw masuk kuliah lagi . itu harpitnas . itu senin . so gw prepare .. mulai dari tema playlist hari itu . gw sampe bikin playlist khusus dengan judul loveless . isinya lagu2 broken heart .. eh break up deng . gw bahkan menyimpan kaus hitam polos gww agak tidak dipakai dikotori . dua hari sebelumnya, gw membiasakan kaki gw dengan seharian memakai sepatu yang mau gw pakai pas hari senin itu . wedges, ga terlalu tinggi*(sial) dan berwarna hitam . salah satu favorit gw .
namun sebelumnya gw perjelas ya .. playlist gw bukan menggambarkan keadaan gw saat itu .. yang masi berlaku sampai saat ini alias jomblo . kan ceritanya gw mau nyiapin playlist buat hari valentine .. tapi bingung mau tema apa . maunya spesial gitu kan, pake tema . lope lope .. malas . terus temen gw*(yg kebetulan pada jomblo) ngajak jalan bareng hari itu . dan mereka minta tema patah hati . pokoknya saat itu temen2 gw kebetulan ceritanya pada ga happy lovey gitu . yauda, gw pun terinspirasi . valentine kan intinya hati . berarti patah hati bole dong ? kan ada hati juga intinya . fix deh tuh tema playlist ! dan baju sepatu .. ya disesuaikan dengan playlist . gw bahkan dandan hari itu . i want to look *(agak) beautiful :p
gimana ? et dah ..
GATOT .
tau ujan ga ? idup kan pas hari valentine ? ujan mamen .. dari pagi . gw yang tadinya mau melangkah ke pintu kelas dengan langkah penuh percaya diri .. malah terbungkuk-bungkuk megang dinding sambil berserapah, terus ke kamar mandi dan memeras baju gw .. lantai langsung banjir dong . percuma abis tuh bedak dan rambut yang udah gw rapiin serapi mungkin .. gw malah berbau sampah jakarta yang numpuk di pantai ancol -____-
ya begitulah hari valentine . gw cuma bisa menggigil di bawah ac sambil mencoba memahami ocehan dosen dengan baju kuyup dan rambut lepek . mood gw menikmati hari itu lenyap . tadinya gw mau jalan, gw malah stay di rumah dan maen the simms . cih .
sekarang apa ya ? itu kejadian pas hari h .. tapi ngomongin valentine ga afdol ngomongin lovelife . so, how about my lovelife so far ?
sebenernya gw ga terlalu suka menceritakan hal ini . bukannya apa-apa .. tapi karena memang tidak terlalu ada yang bisa diceritakan . apa lagi ? kan udah pernah ditulis di posting2an sebelumnya ..
fine, gw tidak mau berpacaran saat ini . oke, gw belum mau pacaran . kenapa ? apa ga ada orang lo suka ?
menjawab pertanyaan pertama .. gw belum mau berpacaran saat ini karena mau konsen kuliah . owh okayy so basi but it's fact . gw merasa gw belom menjadi apa-apa . gw hanya bisa menjadi orang lo cintai dan mencintai lo .. oke, ngelantur :D tapi gitulah . well, mungkin sama orang tertentu mau .. kan gw gatau gimana ke depannya . tapi maunya sih belum dulu . dan .. kalo bisa sih, cita-cita gw pacaran untuk serius . gw ga butuh supir pribadi atau atm berjalan, no . tapi kalo bisa, gw mau pacaran dengan orang yang sudah berpenghasilan sendiri . no offense lho, bukannya minta dibayarin atau apa .. tapi lebih enak begitu lah . kan kesian orang tua juga :)
menjawab pertanyaan kedua .. well well well . ada ..
ah kan udah gw bilang udah dibahas di postingan sebelumnya . nanti kupingnya gatel lagi diomongin melulu . next question, 1 to go .
lo ga ngerayain sama dia ?
engga lah, siapa gw ..
lo .. *********************** ?*(demi kenyamanan bersama, pertanyaan ini kami sensor)
hah ? ah, apa banget nanyanya .. wei, udah lebih dari 3 pertanyaan ! wuoo menyalahi aturan kau ..
jawab aja sih !
nambah nilai gw gitu kalo jawab ?
jangan boong el, jujur ..
gw ga boong . gw ga seneng boong .
tapi lo gamau jawab !
lah, ga boong kan gw ? udah sih, gw mau tidur .. besok kuliah pagi . misi ..
angela ..!
Rabu, 09 Februari 2011
the simms:LS
aa i got the simms back ! jeez finally ..
yoha, gw berhasil .. oke ga bisa dibilang berhasil deng . tapi gw sudah menginstall the simms 2 life stories ke laptop . yah ga beres sih, karena dia masi belum mau main kalo ga pke cd sedang seharusnya bisa2 aja . yah, sudah merupakan suatu kemajuan lho buat gw berhasil menciptakan hal2 seperti itu di laptop ..
tapi beda sih sama yang punya gw terakhir . yup, di kompi tercinta ada the simms 2 juga .. tapi dulu itu udah ada pet sama university deh kalo ga salah .. pokoknya, bisa memelihara hewan peliharaan dan gw bisa menguliahkan remaja gw .. sedang yang yang ini, cuma bisa main biasa . tapi kata yang minjemin sih bisa bangun sampe 4 lantai ..
gw main the simms yang dulu itu lama banget . bertahun-tahun .. lupa sih berapa tahun pokoknya lama . oke yang paling kelihatan sih kakak gw lamanya . dia udah sama beranak pinak, berkembang biak sampe si cicit punya cicit lagi .. panjang deh .
kalo gw sih ga terlalu keliatan . karena tokoh gw itu pasti gw minumin elixir melulu .. itu lho, yang bisa memperpanjang umur . terus gw kebanyakan bikin tokoh baru . ga kaya kakak gw, adopsi lah, nikah sama orang lewat di jalan lah .. hasilnya anaknya ada yang 'kurang' gitu deh . parahnya, dia pernah ngadopsi anak .. yang itu adalah anak perempuan gw semata wayang . jadi itu anak waktu masi di rumah gw tinggal kerja dan dia pergi sekolah . sampe di rumah ga ada orang . gw langsung dianggap menelantarkan anak .. dijemput orang deh dia, masuk pantii asuhan . ck, sedih . gw inget banget, namanya juno dan nama ibunya Saphire .
ah jadi pengen langsung main lagi . senengnya main yang ini, gw bisa ngecat tembok . jadi punya gw yang dulu itu entah kena virus atau apa .. tapi tembok tuh warnanya merah semua . sama kaya warna kolam biasa dan kolam renang . yang ini engga . udah gitu bisa liat pemandangan .. rumah tetangga depan .
btw, tokoh gw di sini adalah single mother, yang hamil sama seorang kakek*si kakek juga gw yang bikin . namanya Callista Crescent dan nama bayinya Jasper Crescent . engga, ga bakal ada nama alice kok nanti di the simms gw -__-
tapi si kakek so sweet . dia dateng ke rumah Callista dan ngasi mawar merah*my favourite!* terus ada kartunya ..
Dear Callista
Romance bloomed between us
As this single flower shows
And as i think of you, my sweet
My longing for you grows
Ryan
P.S:gw nyesel ngasi nama si kakek ryan . salah sasaran ..
yoha, gw berhasil .. oke ga bisa dibilang berhasil deng . tapi gw sudah menginstall the simms 2 life stories ke laptop . yah ga beres sih, karena dia masi belum mau main kalo ga pke cd sedang seharusnya bisa2 aja . yah, sudah merupakan suatu kemajuan lho buat gw berhasil menciptakan hal2 seperti itu di laptop ..
tapi beda sih sama yang punya gw terakhir . yup, di kompi tercinta ada the simms 2 juga .. tapi dulu itu udah ada pet sama university deh kalo ga salah .. pokoknya, bisa memelihara hewan peliharaan dan gw bisa menguliahkan remaja gw .. sedang yang yang ini, cuma bisa main biasa . tapi kata yang minjemin sih bisa bangun sampe 4 lantai ..
gw main the simms yang dulu itu lama banget . bertahun-tahun .. lupa sih berapa tahun pokoknya lama . oke yang paling kelihatan sih kakak gw lamanya . dia udah sama beranak pinak, berkembang biak sampe si cicit punya cicit lagi .. panjang deh .
kalo gw sih ga terlalu keliatan . karena tokoh gw itu pasti gw minumin elixir melulu .. itu lho, yang bisa memperpanjang umur . terus gw kebanyakan bikin tokoh baru . ga kaya kakak gw, adopsi lah, nikah sama orang lewat di jalan lah .. hasilnya anaknya ada yang 'kurang' gitu deh . parahnya, dia pernah ngadopsi anak .. yang itu adalah anak perempuan gw semata wayang . jadi itu anak waktu masi di rumah gw tinggal kerja dan dia pergi sekolah . sampe di rumah ga ada orang . gw langsung dianggap menelantarkan anak .. dijemput orang deh dia, masuk pantii asuhan . ck, sedih . gw inget banget, namanya juno dan nama ibunya Saphire .
ah jadi pengen langsung main lagi . senengnya main yang ini, gw bisa ngecat tembok . jadi punya gw yang dulu itu entah kena virus atau apa .. tapi tembok tuh warnanya merah semua . sama kaya warna kolam biasa dan kolam renang . yang ini engga . udah gitu bisa liat pemandangan .. rumah tetangga depan .
btw, tokoh gw di sini adalah single mother, yang hamil sama seorang kakek*si kakek juga gw yang bikin . namanya Callista Crescent dan nama bayinya Jasper Crescent . engga, ga bakal ada nama alice kok nanti di the simms gw -__-
tapi si kakek so sweet . dia dateng ke rumah Callista dan ngasi mawar merah*my favourite!* terus ada kartunya ..
Dear Callista
Romance bloomed between us
As this single flower shows
And as i think of you, my sweet
My longing for you grows
Ryan
P.S:gw nyesel ngasi nama si kakek ryan . salah sasaran ..
Kamis, 27 Januari 2011
book of dreams
selamat tahun baru yang telat gilak . sekilas info, modem gw sempet ngilang dari orbitnya dan baru ketemu skarang . dan bb gw entah kenapa ga mau ngesave apalagi publish postingan blog yang udah gw ketik susah payah .. whatever lah .
dan semua rencana review evaluasi blablabla soal resolusi tahun lalu .. kini tinggal kenangan . satu kalimat, 2010 adalah tahun yang sungguh sangat ramai berkali-kali . whatever it means, really .
dan post gw hari ini adalah launching .. sekaligus pamer ..
book of dreams !
keren yaa ? huehhe . waktu pertama kali liat buku ini, gw langsung poling in lop dan memboyongnya ke rumah ! gatau deh mau diapain tuh buku .. dan kini ia resmi menjadi book of dreams gw .
ya begitulah . semua dreams yang gw pengen, tentu gw ingin yang terhebat yang terwujud . bermimpilah yang tinggi, kawan . kalo kata orang bijak, "mimpi aja kok repot ."
see y'll sehr soon ! ^^
dan semua rencana review evaluasi blablabla soal resolusi tahun lalu .. kini tinggal kenangan . satu kalimat, 2010 adalah tahun yang sungguh sangat ramai berkali-kali . whatever it means, really .
dan post gw hari ini adalah launching .. sekaligus pamer ..
book of dreams !
keren yaa ? huehhe . waktu pertama kali liat buku ini, gw langsung poling in lop dan memboyongnya ke rumah ! gatau deh mau diapain tuh buku .. dan kini ia resmi menjadi book of dreams gw .
ya begitulah . semua dreams yang gw pengen, tentu gw ingin yang terhebat yang terwujud . bermimpilah yang tinggi, kawan . kalo kata orang bijak, "mimpi aja kok repot ."
see y'll sehr soon ! ^^
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