i have my life . and people around me, including you, see it . and if you care enough, which i guess you already do that since you read my blog right now, you'll have your own image of me . each of you can have sort of different concept of that image, but it's slightly same .
so .. here is the deal . i, we, can see what image they've created for us . somehow and sometimes, it's good . it's really good, that we'd like to keep them have that image on us . and then, time goes by . see, everything is relative . human can change in one second . then one day, let's just say that image is kind of preventing us on showing something . we get to watch our words and acts, because we don't want them to change that image of us they have .
do you guys get the case ? i know some of you, even most of you, will say why i do that . i shouldn't hide my own self, friendship shouldn't be based on fake fact, showing true self is much better either for me or for them, blablabla .
that's not wrong . that's absolutely right . is there else ? tell me .
but i get to say ..
it's interesting .
see how people get charmed on unusual side is interesting . it's fun to be someone else for a while you know, although i don't mean being my true self isn't good enough . it's not about goodness or badness .. it's just the fun i'm looking for (:
am i weird ? keeping that image isn't easy . for example, i don't write posts i really think because that image i want to keep . relax, this post and the rest aren't fake . i just don't write down the naked things, or if i write it down, i'll censor or use another words .
the funny thing is .. one day i read a comic . if i don't mistake it, the title is love egoist . the comic tells a girl who hides her bad personalities behind the image of perfect smart beautiful student and a teacher who hides behind his personalities too . both of them know their real personalities and it makes them close . and then, the student fall in love with this teacher . this teacher actually starts loving her too, but he finds out he changes now because of that girl, and he tries to ignore her because he is uncomfortable with the changes . of course we can guess the ending of this story . the teacher realizes his true feeling and they date . happy ending .
one small quote that got my attention .. they say(i don't really remember)
in this wicked world .. if we can show the true color only to the one we love .. isn't it beautiful?
at the end, they start revealing their true personalities to the world . they really change .. because they love .
so .. will this habit of mine, playing with images when i get the mood, change ? or should i find my love first ? ;)
