Dear Lord Jesus,
Good morning. I know we just finished talking, but I felt like i should write this letter as a reminder for my own.
I know that You know how tired i am. How envious i become towards my kin. How bitter i am in this present time. How fake i become in front of people, including my own self.
I know that You know i resented you a bit. I am sorry. I really, really, really am sorry. I was kind of blaming, and i'm sorry. It wasn't fair and totally wrong of me. Sorry.
However i know, that all these pains would be worthy. All the stuck up anger, jealousy, low self esteem, and other negativities that were building inside and causing so much pain, would be gone.
How could i know? Well, truthfully i don't. It is just by faith in You. Yep, my far-from-perfect faith, my still-sees faith, my faith that i surrender to You. And looking back to my life, how could i not have faith in You? You made me survive that. And here i am, experiencing all those judgements and once again, i come to You. If that wasn't the sign You still want me, still intend to finish Your plan in me, i must be a rubber duck.
(Well, that's one bad joke, but You got it, right? Oh come on, You're the one who created me after all..)
Anyhow, thank You. I know that You forgive me, and i know You're the one who gives me that kind of faith. The kind that maybe seem to small for world, but directed to the right place. And thank you for Your patience that keeps fighting for me, defending me. I would make You proud, Lord, and that is a promise.
Eternally grateful,
Angela juwita
Oh, and i love You. You know i don't say it lightly, right? But know that my heart whispers it in every breath, every mili second, "i love You, Jesus".
