Kamis, 28 Desember 2017

far enough, hopefully

Yesterday I was doing nothing, as usual. I had a plan actually with a few mates in the evening. At noon I was slouching on bed, doing nothing and feeling bored. I picked my phone and scrolled the screen, jumped from one page to another, basically tried to find something a bit interesting.
I typed something on Google and a few suggestions appeared. It was a search about a particular quiz. Absentmindedly I opened the first page suggested and did the quiz. It was a quiz about depression. Standard questions and nothing piqued my interest. As the result was out, I saw that I just had 30% of depression and it was a low at scale. Yet the result suggested that I had symptoms of bipolar, so they offered a link to bipolar disorder quiz.

Naturally, I was baited.

Once again, the quiz had standard questions and nothing piqued my interest. Since I thought it was just like the previous quiz, if not lamer, I waited for the result to pop without any interest. You can guess what happened? The result showed that I had very high scale at depression. By number? It was 100% of bipolar disorder.

I only have a very vague, little knowledge about bipolar disorder. Was it a multiple personality stuff or something? That result fished a bit more interest from me, because I didn’t think the result would vary very differently from the previous yet similar quiz I’ve taken.
Of course I knew how silly those quizzes are. The web also stated that the quiz was just meant for information and fun and you shouldn’t take in a a real diagnose. I also didn’t have any interest to know what bipolar disorder is, since I thought the quiz was just stupid. Okay, I was lazy. So, no, this story wasn’t meant to tell you about how I ended up thinking I was having a bipolar disorder and started to justify my life story with the informations I gathered about it. No, that wasn’t the highlight.

After reading the result and thinking how amusing the difference in the results...then, I wondered:
how did I get here?



Do you remember how this story started? After the slouching part, people. Yes, I typed something on Google.
What did I type?









how close you are to suicide

Selasa, 26 Desember 2017

Yeay

I can't wait to take picture of us.
Later, I could delete them while pretending what I delete are the memories of us.


I can't wait to make memories of us.
Later, I could relive them while laughing at how painful the memories of us are.


Prost.