less than an hour, i'll step into the day, which is my birthday. sounds exciting, right? but i can't feel that way, yet at least. okay, my mood isn't as bad as i think it will be, so it's alright. even i can feel a bit of happiness, and a strange calmness.
just for your information, i'll have my 19th birthday this year. i always tell people around me that it's the year. this age will be the last time i can even my birthday as a teen. see? nineteen.
i planned many things for this very day before. but all those plans get wasted..because i dont ave money to make it true :p
it also passes through my mind..that i want to make this year as the changing point. maybe from this nineteen age, i'll act as naughty, wild, free and crazy as a girl can be. as i can be. it's the preparation before i step into an adult world.
but..that's to much, isn't it?
i already have problems which maybe need a terrific act to solve. so i'll just let my life go wherever the path leads to..and not waste my time to try to control this uncontrollable life (:
and..what else should i say? nothing else i think. and, just last but not least..i thank God. with this sinful self and life, i thank the most awesome, wonderful and amazing God people could put faith to. words, worships, and my whole life can't describe how thankful i am, but i know that He knows. so, dear God..
thank you.
