am I disappointed ? I think so . even I don't like this fact I'm disappointed, but yes I am .
no, pals . I won't talk about what makes me disappointed, nor who makes me so .
the people who makes me this disappointed, isn't people I think will have anything important in my life . I mean no harm, but they just aren't included in my inner intimate circle . they are people whom I meet routinely, but don't reach level to be able to affect my life yet . I'm just surprised they did so, and I'm disappointed . but still, since they aren't type that affect my life, I won't change my acts and words toward them . I also can stop thinking I'm disappointed and why, but I can't stop my feelings toward them changing .. in way more negative .
but this point makes me think and have a reflection . I understand I can be way worse than them . I'm harsh, mean, cold and my moody self doesn't help at all . it's difficult to control my tongue, and I can't help it with my eyes . I'm not someone who have or do many things, clumsy and such geek . it must be annoying to have me say and act not-so-good to you .
up to this state, I bide you all my sincere apology . I'm sorry I make it hard for you all this time . deep inside, I'm overwhelmed with gratitude to have such friends like all of you . and least, I apology once again, because I don't promise I will change my bad habits for you . I'll be nicer to people I respect, need and want sincerely, but I admit I really dislike some of you . sorry, pals .
so, that's my reflection . I hope you understand, and let's pray for world to be better place for all of us . since I and you are in the same world, it's just same with praying for our own self to be better, include to each other (:
let's get along better !
xoxo
