october ..
i used to think that's a beautiful name .
i don't think so now ..
this month screw me up and down . i never realize it .. until yesterday . i realized, deep down inside of me
i hate fire
in the night
of october
i hate it .
it's been almost a year .
and what i have now is not so less than the last one .
but still ..
something is missing . something isn't comfortable . something is keeping scratching my heart .
something is hurting .
well, doesn't mean i hate my birthday .. i just try not to think much about it . well, it's not only about what i mean up there, but also the day . my mother is going out of town, my sister will go home late and my father will be busy either .
i just don't see how my birthday this year can be good .
have any idea ?
