on this night, I ask myself, "to whom do I lie?"
"well", answer myself, "to me."
and to every other people, who asked about you and me. and also to those, who just stated out their thoughts on us. I'm sorry, I did tell some of my friends. I've maintained to only tell few hints, but sometimes they catch up too fast, and then they come out with their own conclusions. frankly, although their statements weren't close yet, their confidence were already built up. I hope that they'll be quiet..but I don't really know how long they can last to endure it.
so, yeah. my heart still goes for you. what is the point of answering all their same question? what is the point of confessing my feelings to the world? even if it was to my own self, what is the point of telling it again and again??
it isn't to you.
and I don't have any strength left to say it to you.
since the beginning, I don't have any hope to be able to see your face and tell you.
well..live happily and healthily. I've experienced it before, so I can say it's easier to give up on you when I can see you live happily. since now, I'll try much harder and won't lower my guard anymore.
damn..
I miss you.
