i just had a retret with my church fellow. the theme of the retret is "your life, your choice?". we learned that we have our own free will, to choose which path we would take, which decision we would make. that is essential. we do have greater power above us, but He kindly gives us free will.
by hearing the preach, i've come to an understanding, that what love God is. He is the loveliest lover ever. we all already know, that we love God, because He loves us first. and unlike we, human, His love would never and could never change, because it is perfect already.
although His love is prefect already, although He loves us so much until He died to save us from our own mistake, He is still willing to let us have and use our own will. i mean, what kind of love is that?
that is kind of love, that although you have free will, you'll throw it away, and try your best to be with that love as long as possible, or in one word, forever.
that is kind of love, you'll be amazed, grateful of, no matter how long you've been with that love.
as a girl, i used to dream that one day i'll have my own love story. and my love story will be more beautiful than any romance in this world. absolutely more that romeo and juliet( i never, never understand why romeo and juliet is love story. they died stupidly, for all God's sake), cinderella(please don't let me go through poverty, slavery, cruel step-familyhood just to meet my love one. please), rapunzel(actually it's kinda cute, but i think i'll stress my life out for having and caring such long hair) or whoever else. i'm desperate to find that.
but all those looking and desperate are useless. why? well, it's actually in front of me all the time. the love story between God and me, that is more than enough.
