this time, i would like to introduce you my current boss. his name is...well, let's just call him "baweng". "baweng" here could mean "bawel" in indonesian. that's an adjective, that describes someone who talks awfully lot. and because his talk seems more like whining to me, and i find it actually cute, because he is older than me, i call him "baweng".
but there was something he did lately, that makes me not want to talk with him, no matter how much he is whining. you see, i was a leadership staff in an faculty student organization. he was the head of leadership division. our division got 2 big events, faculty leadership training and new student orientation. actually before you joined this faculty student organization, you have to experience faculty leadership training first. at first i didn't want to go there, because i didn't feel like i need it. but since it was event from my division, i went there.
i went there. you see, all the crew were my friends, or juniors. and i was treated exactly like any other participants. it was actually okay. i've expected it. what i didn't expect was...him.
he didn't do much. there were only 2 things i remember he did. first, he knew the way to get to the villa faster, but he didn't tell me, although he knew well i was already in the edge of breaking down from exhaustion. but actually, it was still okay. but the second thing...boom. he asked a junior to scold me.
you see, it was actually okay. i also actually didn't understand why it brought to this state. logically, it was okay for him to that. maybe he did that, because he saw that the junior actually wanted to scold me but she wasn't brave enough, so he just encouraged her. it was good, right?
but it hurt.
i even didn't know what makes me feel that.
but it hurt me awfully back then.
i even cried a little, dude.
and it still hurts.
and up until now, i didn't talk with him. i even act like he is invincible. and he was getting caring more than ever. he did his best to get my attention. he asked why i get mad at him, and i didn't answer. well, i also actually didn't even know why.
if you were reading this, and i knew you didn't, i'm actually sorry. i'm sorry i called you"merde". i'm sorry i treat you like you were invincible. i'm sorry i act this childishly. but i didn't get hurt that way easily, you know, so i was actually shocked, and that's why i treat you this way. i need some time to think.
