yes, we need friends for living.
when i was kid, i thought that i wasn't good at making friends. yes, that was something i thought ever since i was little. i realized i was kind of stubborn and liked to push people when things didn't go my way. we all know that every social circles has a kind of alpha person. i was an alpha by my own. i never intended, forget liked, to try fitting into a clique i wasn't interested with.
i could say i've changed now.
well, not that much, perhaps. but yes, i did change. i could say this because a few people have confirmed it by telling it to me, both friends and long term acquaintances.
they said that i was more approachable.
i was friendlier.
surprisingly, i was kind.
and frankly, i was kinda happy being able to change.
am i, though?
i don't think i'm happy about the fact i've changed anymore. i think i've made a dire mistake by changing my personality. i think i befriended people not worth my time. i think i made my self vulnerable to more useless nuisance.
at least there are two things i know for sure now.
one, i cannot undo things that have happened.
two, those thoughts above aren't really helpful.
well, i don't know about this, but i am sure that my life is gonna be better. it's okay that i've changed. it's i used to think that it was good. but, it's also okay that i think the change wasn't good. i am learning and life is changing. just hang on to to the faith my life is gonna be better, while keep living on my days to the fullest. however, life isn't that predictable, is it?
i'm not sure where this post head to anymore, so i'll end it up here.
see ya later!
