so, my gastric acid or whatever it was, was messing around. and it was annoying. well, it still is annoying.
and of course because of this problem, i couldn't really enjoy 2 things i really love, sambal and coffee.
actually, i wasn't really good at handling spicy foods. but, as i kept trying, i think my spice tolerance has been rising up. now, i can enjoy spicy foods more. the problem is, i like my palate to be savory and salty and sometimes the sambal cut back some of the saltiness. so yeah, i still love sambal whenever i found one suited to my taste, but i could live without them.
until i wasn't allowed to have them at all.
it sucks, it sucks, it sucks.
but, what else can i do?
seriously, this year's whole team could be just about holding back.
so many wants tempt me all around this year. since i lived by myself now, it's easier for me to fall back. of course, the limitations everywhere due to this pandemic didn't really help.
i prefer distractions when i have troubling thoughts. the distractions are mostly not human, since human just add more troubling thoughts later. but now i couldn't really go anywhere because of this pandemic and i just don't like it.
ugh, my english is just worsening now.
yeah, the point is, i am tempted to do things i don't suppose to do.
i miss coffee.
i just want to smoke.
i want to slap a few people. with chairs. (because, you know, corona)
i want to slap a lot of people.
i want to kick myself.
i want to curse and cuss out loud.
i want to respond back with unfiltered mouth whenever their stupidity pokes me.
see? not a lot of good things.
what is this post about now? another rant? another whining?
sorry, internet, i have nothing to say to people.
moral of the story: i need coffee.
