Always one step too much.
That's how I feel right towards myself now. Always, always one step over the line. Too much. Too little. Too soon, too late. Too tired, too excited. Never quite the right timing nor the right person.
Yep, like it or not, I kind of feel depressed.
Why? My friend once said that people at my age are kind of susceptible of being depressed.
It's kind of relaxing to hear such news. At least, it might be just a phase. No, it really is just a phase. Like, college lesbian phase. Smoking teenager phase. Adventurous traveller phase.
In some way, it feels like I'm feeling too much. I'm overthinking. I'm overthinking about overthinking. Again, one feeling and thinking too much, i feel numb. Then I feel stupid about why I would be numb, while nothing went wrong so far. But no matter how okay I feel, how right it feels sometimes...there's always the numbness. One moment. One night. One morning.
It's okay.
It's just a phase.
